One word God really spoke to me at training camp was: Transition. Of course there are the obvious transitions like in one month I will leave St Louis my home of 7 years and head out into the world with all my possessions for a year in a back pack. While that may seem like a big transition its small in comparison to what God is doing in my heart.
The transition I am talking of is from living in the past to embracing the present. From living in want and need to resting in the grace of God. Slowly I am realizing and accepting His grace is sufficient for me and He is meeting all my needs. It’s amazing to feel the presence of God and the love He has for me.
It is wonderful to embrace my transformation from lonely, depressed, alcoholic, to chosen, beloved, daughter. The thing God pressed on my heart is my transformation is not for me alone. He chose me. He rescued me. He gave me the strength to endure. He did this because He loves me, but He also did this so I could pour my life out for others.
He healed me so I could be, as my pal Henri Nouwen would say, a “wounded healer”. Now is the time to embrace the transition from darkness to light. I do not regret the past, but the time for living is now. He has plans to use me and its time for me to accept that and give my life so others can know the love and hope I have.
I am not here for myself. My life is for God. I am redeemed. I am loved.
” But you are a chosen race, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people for his own possession, that you may proclaim the excellencies of him who called you out of darkness into his marvelous light.” – 1 Peter 2:9
