I don’t have to fear.
I don’t have to hide behind any sort of mask.
I don’t need to be nervous.
I won’t make excuses.
I am going home.
In a month, M squad will be boarding a plane to America. We will be began the reentry process. Friends and family will greet us.
I can almost guarantee I’m not the only one with these thoughts:
“How will I adjust?”
“Who will understand?”
“What’s next?”
“What just happened?”
I’m sure there are a million more of those kind of thoughts all at the forefront of our headspace.
I had a conversation with my dad(hi papa bear) about sharing the gospel.
Me:”dad, how will I share the gospel back home? Here I can just go up to someone ask them if they know who Jesus is. In America it’s different.”
Dad:”daughter, through your life. Your life is the gospel. How you live is how people will see the gospel.”
Lightbulb. Duh brooke.
I don’t know if there’s some sort of missionary thinking or maybe even savior complex thinking that is rolling around my head of some added pressure thinking I need to go home with a cape and be some super hero and brag about my journey. Or try to prove it wasn’t just a year of adventure days. Or to put the world race on some sort of pedestal of only giving the credit to the race and not to God.
As I’ve been wrestling all these different rabbit trails in month 10, I’ve realized a couple things:
Home won’t be scary.
God is the same God here as he is in America.
This journey is not ending August 21st when we arrive, it’s only beginning.
The race, traveling 11 countries in 11 months, is so small compared to what God is going to do in each of our lives!
Be who God has created me to be.
I may not be moving every 3 weeks, living out of a backpack, waking up to another human next to me, sharing the gospel on the streets when I’m home.
But what I will be doing is readjusting. Letting my life continue to be the gospel. Taking all of the things I have learned and applying it.
Our lives are not a pause button. We didn’t press pause to do this journey. Every day has been real with real people and real stories. And home will be the same. We won’t press the pause button on growing with the Lord, finding comfort in him, changing everyday to be more Christ like.
There are a lot of things in my life that i have different passions and desires for. I have big dreams. But the one thing that stays consistent when I think about coming home and what I want is continuing to draw closer to Christ.
That won’t change.
My life will continue to be a representation of the gospel.
