“Raise your hands if you’re feeling stuck” { I raised my hand.}
Im not entirely sure why I was feeling stuck that night, but I was and needed to do something about it. While my hand shot up, people gathered to pray around me. A voice over my shoulder started to speak over me saying the season I am currently walking is growing pains.The hurt and confusion that I have been feeling in the middle of the preparation process leading up to launch has suddenly hit me like a ton of bricks. From last October until literally…..NOW, I have been numb.
I am no longer numb. I aware of my surroundings, I am aware of my season. I am aware.
AND ITS SCARY! but its so good and I love it. When that word was spoken over me it was almost like God removed this sheet that had been draped over my eyes for so long. I could see again. I was growing in my pain.
But this word of growing in and through, isn’t just for me. Its for you, its for the people we will meet this year, its for me. And by the end of it we will grow into beautiful trees bearing the most precious fruit. My squad, my team, myself, we all experience this “ growing pain.” We will hurt when others hurt, we will cry when others cry, but when we finish this journey a year from now, something beautiful will be planted.
As I am doing my final thoughts before leaving America, I am continuing to feel things that I haven’t felt in so long. Why do I tell you this? I want you who are reading this to walk alongside me this year. My goal is to be raw and open to what God is doing in my life. Right now.. this is what God is doing in my life, he’s growing me in the pain.
What will I do with this pain? Leave. I hop on a plane with 36 others to Cambodia 6 hours from now and I will take my pain with me. Not to hold onto it, but to show others how to grow from their pain. I don’t exactly know what I will experience or what this year will exactly hold but I am ready.
Here are some finishing thoughts to wrap up. My team, the river dancers will be in Kampong Thom Province working with an organization called Evangelical Mission Organization for Development. This will entail many things such as teaching English, working in the children home, help plant a church, work in the high school and do some feeding programs! My team and I are excited and anxious, but we know God is going to teach us so much and use us to be the hands and feet in these places.
A few ways you can help is subscribe through my blog page. This will be the best way to stay updated with all that I will be doing, I will try to blog once a week or every other week. And last but not least is financially. I am about 5 thousand dollars away, if you would like to partner with me click the donate button up on this page. Thank you all so much for reading, stay tuned for more!
Finally thoughts from America-brooke
