I have been struggling with blogging this month. As much as I write and constantly process every thought, it is so different when I am putting it on a public blog. This month has been full of my highest highs and lowest lows on the race. I have literally been to Everest and back. So, I will try to be simple and let you in on where I am at in all ways. I am still with Team Tambo in a village outside Kathmandu, Nepal. We have been doing a myriad of ministries and having a lot of new, fun experiences. What I have grown through most is the crazy evangelism moments we have been faced with.
I guess that starts my highs. In the past 2 weeks, I have flown over Mt. Everest, visited a Buddhist monastery, camped in the Himalayas, ridden on top of a bus into the mountain, and hung out with new friends here in Nepal. This is the first month I have had the thought-“Now this is the World Race”. I have gotten to be part of an amazing family with a Dad who gives me hugs and kisses and tells me I am beautiful and a mom with a servant heart of gold. As a team, we carved a pumpkin, made fall treats, and have had some really fun times that I know will always be with me.
Amongst all of these joys and blessings, I have been going through some of the most difficult moments. Overall, it has been much harder being away from “home” than I thought. In that, I realized that home for me, is not necessarily a certain place but just somewhere where I can be completely myself and have a certain level of comfort. On most trips, by the time you miss that, you can see the end, and then return back to whatever or wherever that is. For me, it is a continual process of finding who I am and meeting that with where I am or who I am with.
I also came on this journey with a lot of God questions and selfishly expected them to all be answered by the miraculous experiences I would be in as a missionary, I’ve come to see that I had the life of a missionary so romanticized in my mind. So, I continue searching and am grateful for the wisdom being provided through those I meet.
I am glad to be learning in such a spectacular place with people who are truly seeking. I know that every day here will be a memory and appreciated for the rest of my life. So, this is me breaking my writers block and letting you in as much as I can I guess.
