“There were two doors standing before me. Each one leading a path of life all of it’s own, and I, I held the power to choose”.
Choices.
Life is full of them. In fact, your entire life is made up from your choices. Do I wear this shirt, or that dress? Do I go to school here, or there? Do I live here, or move someplace new?
Some life decisions are definitely bigger then others. Some are so daunting that they seem to haunt your dreams at night. The ones that will alter how the rest of your life will go. What the rest of your life will look like. I was recently faced with that kind of decision.
Should I go on the World Race, or should I pursue my Kingdom dream?
I spent hours, just sitting at the feet of Jesus asking him that very question. I worked through all the fears, doubts, insecurities, and confusion, with the peace of Jesus completely surrounding me, entangling everything that wasn’t of Him. The more time I spent in worship, it became easy to shake off all the weight of this decision and to just keep my focus completely on him. I just wanted to be in his presence. I just wanted to see his face. And every time I did, all I could see was his look of love, and the passion he held for me in his burning eyes.
Then I heard him whisper, calling me his Beloved. That I was his bride. That I was loved beyond my wildest dreams.
Then he told me that he trusted me, and I suddenly realized that he was giving me the freedom of choice.
He loved me enough to let me choose.
But choice is a scary thing. It would be so much easier if he could just tell me what to do, and where to go at any given second. But that isn’t a relationship, that’s a dictatorship. That isn’t a healthy covenant marriage exchange.
I was his bride. I was his bride in his Kingdom, and a citizen of his house that was full of so many rooms. I was suddenly standing at a crossroads. A decision needed to be made. There were two doors in front of me, and I needed to choose.
Then the most incredible thing happened. He showed me the silliness of all of my fret, and I realized that both were doors in Papa’s house! I couldn’t go wrong! Both doors held good, pleasing, and Holy things! He was blessing me with the empowerment to choose, and I was a winner no matter what path I chose!
Choice. Isn’t that what the Lord has given us all along? It’s been there since the creation of this world! He gave Adam and Eve the choice to follow him or not. He gives us the choice to love him, or to turn away from him. Every day we are faced with the choice of giving in to sin, or dying to ourselves and pursuing righteousness. Sometimes, it is a downright choice between good and evil. But other times, it’s a choice between this good, or that good. Both are good things!
So, it is with this in mind that I officially inform you all that I no longer plan on going on the World Race.
I still fully support the work of Adventures in Missions, and I still fully believe in the dreams and visions of the World Race, and it’s leadership. I think that the race is the most beautiful thing, and it is raising up a generation of radical followers of Jesus.
But I chose to stay, and to build into what the Lord is stirring up in my heart here in the states. I’m choosing into the big dreams he his placed inside of my heart. I’m committing to continuing to seek his face in all that I am, and all that I do. I’m committing to a life of honor before that Lord. I’m committing to grow my heart as a worshipper, and as a lover of Christ, and fully chasing after the adventure and destiny that awaits for me in his Kingdom here.
To all of my supporters; Thank you. Thank you from the bottom of my soul. Thank you for all of your love, support, friendship, loyalty, and for following me in this journey. Your giving has shown me ever more into the goodness of the Father, and I am forever grateful. The support that you have donated to me will still be used to send out missionaries all over the World! The legacy of your gifts to the Kingdom will still live on, and it will impact lives for eternity!
If you have any further questions about your funds, please feel free to contact me personally, or the donor relations department of Adventures in Missions would be more then happy to serve you in any way. They can be reached at (800) 881-2461.
“Commit your work to the Lord,
and your plans will be established”.
-Proverbs 16:3
This is in no way the end of my Kingdom journey, but rather the beginning of a beautiful new season, so stay turned to the adventure!
You are so loved dear ones.
Blessings in Christ,
-Brookie
