I’m learning to be okay with not being okay.
Vulnerability at its finest.
It’s not pretty.
And again, it’s not safe.
Or comfortable.
But it’s humbling.
I’m learning to be okay with not being okay.
“‘Woe to me!’ I cried. ‘I am ruined! For I am a man of unclean lips…” Isaiah 6:5
Isaiah realized his own sinfulness, uncleanliness, and unworthiness.
And after that, he was invited to join God in his work.
“Then I heard the voice of then Lord saying, ‘Whom shall I send? And who will go for us?’ And I said, “Here am I. Send me!”
I’m learning to embrace my brokenness.
“My sacrifice, O God, is a broken spirit; a broken and contrite heart you, God, will not despise.” Psalm 51:17
Are you too proud to reveal that you are hurting? Even to God?
“The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.” Psalm 34:18
I want God to be close to me.
This is the explanation for my prayer. “Lord, break me. Wreck me. Give me more of You.”
The Hebrew word “Hineni” (Hineni Shalacheini) was shared with me by someone and it means: “Here I am,” “Behold me, I am open to you,” the same word both Moses and Samuel used when they had encountered the Lord. I want to live in this place of “Hineni.”
