Greetings to whomever decides to read this post. I am so glad that you choose to follow my journey. You have no clue how much I appreciate it, but down to business.
One night in prayer (5 months ago to be exact) I sat in the back of the church tears falling down my face crying. I was angry, I was frustrated, I was hurt, I was confused. I wanted to give up completely. I wrestled with my thoughts and I doubted that I had any purpose. There were so many unanswered questions. Why had no one chosen to support me? Why were people mocking me? Why didn’t anyone believe in me? I was done. Au Revoir World Race. I decided right then and there that this adventure was over.
$8500 later I’m glad that I was able to overcome my fears and frustration, I’m ecstatic that I didn’t give up. I’m overjoyed, because I didn’t let the negative talk and the feelings I had destroyed this amazing adventure. I was destined for this. I know what you’re thinking, who are you to declare this; but here’s the thing. I haven’t always noticed, but I am created to endure the good, the bad, and the ugly. I’ve grown accustomed to it over the years. It took a long time to see that what the devil meant for bad God uses for good, but it’s true.
- I doubted going on this mission trip — but God had a different plan for me
- I doubted that the $16,254 would be raised — but God once again showed me anything is possible with Him
- I doubted that I was a right fit for the race — but God showed me how beautiful my testimony is and how I can use it for His glory.
As I sit on the airplane headed to Atlanta there is only one thing on my mind. 2015 will not be easy for me. It will be hard and challenging. It will be full of ups and downs. There will be times where I’m misunderstood and feel alone. There will be times that I’ll want to come home because I don’t think I can do this anymore. There will be times where I will get tired of being around my team (sorry guys its bound to happen…Its just a me thing.) At some point I’ll be ashamed to share certain parts of me due to fear and possible rejection. There will be times that I desire the things of the world. There will be times that I think I’m right no matter what anyone tells me. There will be times that I will become frustrated and slip into old habits. However, each time will be special. These things will begin stretching and molding me into someone I never thought I could be. I am beyond excited for this journey, and I’m overjoyed that I get to share it with you guys.
Whether you’re a christian or not, adventure is for everyone. Everyone will not have the same adventure, just as no two lives are the same, but we all have some purpose. Today wake up knowing that you will someday fulfill something great, if you’re not already. Walk in the beauty that you are an amazing person capable of so many great things. This year in 2015 just don’t make new year resolutions (we all know the majority of us will stop by the end of January) but instead seek to make new beginnings. Do something you’ve never done before, or start a relationship with someone you never thought you would talk to. Life is too short not to venture off and try new things. Make your 2015 about making new beginnings. I love each and every one of you. I am constantly praying for you and I hope that you’re doing the same for me. Happy 2015. Now go seek some adventure.
Brittine
World Racer 🙂
