Let me start by saying that I have been blessed over the last few months more than I could ever ask for. Thank you to those of you who have blessed me in a number of ways in order to reach the Sept. 12th deadline. Once I made the deadline I should have been screaming “Hallelujah, thank you Jesus,” but instead I was very discontent. I only have $3500 and I have to raise another $4000 by December. I find myself sometimes questioning whether or not I’ll actually be able to raise all the money by July of 2015.
I’ll be completely honest, these are feelings that I have sometimes when I’m at a low point or having a rough day, or maybe because I didn’t make time to indulge in the Word of God that morning. As of late I’ve had these feelings, because of the discouragement I receive daily from friends, family, and other believers. Though you may not know your hurting my feelings or discouraging me, the truth of the matter is that you are.
When you say to me “Brittine that’s a lot of money to raise in a short period of time” or “Brittine I don’t know how you’re going to get all that” or the infamous “Brittine I don’t think you’re going to be able to do it.” You of little faith. It’s like you’re telling me that God is not able to provide for what I’ve been called to do. The world race isn’t just something I stumbled upon this year. It’s something I’ve been researching and has been on my heart since 2008. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. I need you all of my friends, family, and fellow believers to believe that with me.
I have to now spend some time rebuilding my faith, because it’s apparent to me how weak it actually is right now. I want to be like the Canaanite woman in Matthew 15.
22 A Canaanite woman from that vicinity came to him, crying out, “Lord, Son of David,have mercy on me! My daughter is demon-possessed and suffering terribly.”
23 Jesus did not answer a word. So his disciples came to him and urged him, “Send her away, for she keeps crying out after us.”
24 He answered, “I was sent only to the lost sheep of Israel.”
25 The woman came and knelt before him. “Lord, help me!” she said.
26 He replied, “It is not right to take the children’s bread and toss it to the dogs.”
27 “Yes it is, Lord,” she said. “Even the dogs eat the crumbs that fall from their master’s table.”
28 Then Jesus said to her, “Woman, you have great faith! Your request is granted.” And her daughter was healed at that moment.” (Matthew 15:22-28)
Jesus was testing the faith of the Canaanite woman. Jesus put up walls of resistance in order to test her faith, and her reaction to the test is exactly what Christians have. This is just a test for me, but it could definitely be a little easier if everyone was more encouraging towards my decisions. Alright i feel better that my feelings are out in the open. Thanks for listening.
Peace.Love.N.Christ
Brittine A. Brady
