As you all know I was planning on traveling the world spreading the gospel of Christ for 11 months in September! Everything was perfect. The route were all countries I wanted to travel to. My team was amazing! We were getting to know each other so well OVER THE INTERNET! A number of us women could relate and share our stories to encourage one another. The money was rolling in slowly but surely. People were buying things off my registry. My passport finally came in the mail. I was slowly getting things in order for me to leave in September. Everything was going a little to perfect!!
Then it happened. I started to panic. I was having so many events, selling t-shirts, but wasn’t making the money I was hoping to make. I started to get very discouraged and I found myself trusting God less and less. I had been praying so much for this trip and I didn’t understand why God wasn’t answering my prayers.
I was including Him into everything I was doing
I was having event after event to raise the money
I was organized and sending out letters to potential supporters
Then it HAPPENED!!!
Someone asked me “Brittine weren’t you supposed to leave in January. ” I brushed off what they said and stated “No that’s not when I want to go.” It wasn’t later till that evening when I discovered how selfish I was being.
See when I initially applied to the World Race I applied to January 2015 Route 3. I had prayed for weeks after I submitted my application that if it was God’s will for me to serve these people that He would allow me to be accepted to the World Race (January 2015). If this was not where He wanted me to be I was praying to be denied.
I got a call and they said I would be a good fit for the World Race. I knew then that this is what God had in store for me. The problem was that I selfishly and excitedly jumped the gun! I said why wait till January when I can leave in September.
I was running in a direction God didn’t desire me to be in. I spent the past week praying and asking God what it is He wanted me to do. He clearly told me that this isn’t the time for you to go! At first I was mad at God. Like why can’t I go earlier. I want to go earlier. Problem is I’m running away from situations I’ve only begun to deal with.
God wants me to be whole! What He has for me is for me, but it has to be on God’s time and not my own. I’m writing this to show that even though I am a Christian my faith does sometime falter. I am not perfect nor do I claim to be. God wants to bless each and everyone of us WHEN HE IS READY. Be patient. He knows what’s best.
I’m excited to announce that I will be leaving in January 2015 to share the gospel of Christ to the nations. Though I have a different squad I pray that they welcome me just as J squad did!!! I’m excited to watch God change me in the next 6 months before I leave!!! I hope that you are willing to pray with me as I prepare for my trip!!
Peace.Love.N.Christ
Brittine 🙂
