I’m home, it’s a Friday night and I am sitting in front of our temperamental TV waiting for it to come on so Mom and I can potentially watch a Hallmark movie…God bless America…
I am enjoying my last bit of down time though before heading back to finish my last quad of college, (which will whirlwind into graduation) trip preparation and then embarking on the World Race. I am excited for what God still has left in these next couple months before I head off, but it is hard not to think about some of the things that I will miss. I think sleeping on a bed, or hot showers will probably be some of the higher ranked things, but honestly I think it’s the little things. It’s being able to text Mom, Dad, or Emily when something happens that I think they would appreciate, it’s the convenience of driving, it’s spending time with my (possibly demon-possessed) cat Mittens. It’s little stuff, stuff that you don’t think about. It’s going out to dinner with the family.
I don’t know what this next year has in store, and frankly that’s part of the appeal, but there is comfort in knowing these things will probably be here for me when I come back. Mittens, well she is 15 years old, she may not be here when I get back, but as fragile as her life visibly is (she I think possesses only 2 or 3 teeth), that is how fragile we all are. There is no guarantee of anything. We are not promised tomorrow. This could be frightening, but I like to see it in another way, if I am not guaranteed tomorrow than I need to make the most of today. That is part of why I want to do this trip and continue to move toward it. I don’t know what is next after college, and that’s fine, but instead of sitting around feeling sorry for myself, or “finding myself,” or doing a job I don’t care about, or even going to grad school for something I’m not sure I’m interested in…I am going to put my trust in the Lord. I am going…I have been called to do what he would have me do wherever that is, whatever that is. I would be lying if I said that this wasn’t tough, or that I don’t worry at times, but what do I get, other than lack of sleep, from worry…NOTHING
That being said, funds are coming in slower than I thought, but it is all in God’s hands. Not to say I am not supposed to do anything, but that shouldn’t be where my focus is. I still have 2 and 1/2 months left of school and I need to focus on that as well as continuing to seek after God’s heart and God’s plans for my life. Thank you all for your continued support and prayers…I will try to keep you updated!
