Well, Thanksgiving has come and gone, but it was a very weird experience. As usual, the fam and I went to Maine to visit my mom’s side of the family. It was good to see everyone, but it was also very different in that it’s the last Thanksgiving for a year…ok so it is one year in which I won’t have the stereotypical gorge-fest that is Thanksgiving. A day of the Macy’s Thanksgiving Day Parade, Purina Dog Show (don’t mock Emily and I love this…helps us to know which dogs we’ll get in our future lives), then endless football. Sooner or later interrupted by stuffing my face with turkey, mashed potatoes, green bean casserole, etc., the good stuff. Most of all, being surrounded by family. I think this is the thing I am going to miss the most over the next year. This year I will be missing the Smith Family Christmas due to a mission trip to Guatemala…ergo two Christmases in a row I will miss out on catching up with family and playing crazy violent games of Spoons. It got me to thinking, I fear I approached it from a finalist standpoint. I was like ok well this is my last Thanksgiving, or looks like I won’t be seeing these people for a while instead of enjoying the time I get to spend with them.
I think that’s part of what I’m going through with school too…part of it is graduation and part of it is this trip, I know I won’t be coming back the same, and so part of me is worried that I won’t be able to connect with anyone afterward. It that is what is supposed to happen, then so be it, but what do I do in the mean time? I am trying to make the most of the time I get to spend with friends and family, but how do I balance moving on and “be here now?”
