This morning we drove away from our little town called Aguilar.
It´s been a nice few weeks living there. I´ve never really loved Mexico…or actually even liked it to be honest. I´ve never felt a desire to come here. I´ve never seen Mexico in my future (except for the occassional youth mission trip)..but I must admit, Aguilar -Mexico has a place in my heart. I have grown to love the people there! Spending afternoons with kids. Sitting with familes for 30 or 45 minutes and only being able to share 5 or 6 words because of the language barrier…walking kids to school…exploring rivers and field and fields of mud…these are things I soon will not forget. It was difficult to leave. Last night we said goodbye with a party at the church. A few days I wrote a blog about a certain boy who had stolen my heart. Within the last week…his family became a part of my life. I ate dinner and a few luches with this family. I helped out with a few chores around thier house. I played football(soccer) with thier children in the field behind their house while they cheered us on and giggled.
As this family said goodbye to me last night…they began to weep. And repeated that I was thier sister in Christ and a part of thier family. My heart was torn and my eyes suddenly filled with tears…It´s wild how close you become to people in 2 or 3 weeks. How connected hearts become. I´m still processing the idea of loving and letting people in…only to say goodbye after a few weeks. I am closed off in that area. I don´t show deep love right away.
I fear being hurt…and hurting others. Therefore I love but at times only at a surface level. And when i love…i love hard. These last weeks…i forgot to put up my ´wall´. I didn´t recognize the nearness of this family to my heart and I let love in and out as well. So as I say goodbye…to the numerous kids in Aguilar who have made me smile and my heart jump the last few weeks…and to the family who opened thier house, thier lives, thier kitchen and hearts to me…I feel both saddnes and joy. I hope that thier hearts are encouraged today…and that somehow by my life and the time I spent with them…They feel joyful, needed, important and loved by the love that no one can give but Christ.
