“Let heaven fall like a wrecking ball and crush every fear in my veins.” – Jonathan David Hesler
“Here I’m tested and made worthy, tossed about but lifted up
In the reckless raging fury that they call the love of God”
– Rich Mullins
It’s kind of hard to believe that I’m actually in Georgia right now, just days away from beginning my adventure as a World Racer. It’s been a long time coming, this day.
A common theme that has been reappearing in my life the last week and even tonight has been the concept of being wrecked for the kingdom. This trip is going to be amazing, no doubt; but it’s also going to be hard, challenging and stressful. I will not be the same person when I come back in eleven months as I am today. And part of that change will consist of me being broken, reshaped, refined and rebuilt.
Of course, I will be broken by the things I see around me while I’m in the field: the injustices, cruelty, poverty and general despair that I’ll see. And my hope is that by seeing these things, my heart will be broken by the things that break the heart of God.
But what be even more difficult than being broken by what’s going on around me may be the brokenness I’ll inevitably feel inside of myself. That shedding of that tough skin around my heart. The cutting of ties to hurts and labels that I’ve been carrying around with me for twenty-five years. The person I was being wrecked and turning into the person I am made to be.
It’ll be a painful process, a refining fire, but it will be worth it. And I’ll be experiencing it almost sooner than I can believe.
