Fade in…
I walk about this keyboard with thoughts often held under my tongue.
Am I blogging for myself? Am I blogging for others? Am I blogging for nothing?
If I am to be open… If I am to leave all of my flaws before these pages…
Then the only reason I blog is for you.
Jesus, I’m here before you and with a great and sudden shock I don’t know what to say.
I’m not sure if it’s because I’m scared to expose what you already know.
I’m not sure if it’s because at times you can leave me speechless.
“All of the words in all of my life that could never explain and never describe
All of my love, which is nothing to hide so I lift up my hands and I worship
I worship You”
Lyrics from the song “All of the Words” by the band Kutless
That’s it! I worship you. That’s it!
You see I’ve been a bit concerned about the blogging aspect of The World Race. It’s not that I don’t see it’s purpose. I do. I understand the importance on many different levels. I just have been worried I would have nothing to say. Nothing of interest to express. And if I did have something I would not be able to find the words to describe.
When thinking about the root of these concerns I find lying beneath the surface the simple and crippling drive of pride.
I fear what others will think. (Pride!)
I fear what I blog will not be good enough. (Pride!)
I fear what you will think. (Silly silly PRIDE!)
I’m seeing a pattern.
The only times in my life I ever feel a real distance from sin is when I worship you.
When all of my thoughts and all of my love and all of my loss and all of my hurt and all of my laughs and all of my dreams and all of my fears are directed to you in worship, I am free.
This will be the voice of this blog. I blog for you.
I blog to worship.
Blogship 🙂 (I’m such a cheese ball at times)
Jesus, get your reading glasses…
