It was our last night in Atlanta for launch, we were gathered with 200 some people, and we were worshipping God. Singing. Dancing. Praying. Loving every moment. At the end all of our hearts were full.
It was then that they had us gather with our whole squad. One of our squad leaders, Poppy, decided that she wanted to share what God had laid on her heart during worship. She let herself be vulnerable in front of all 51 of our teammates, and told us what God laid on her heart to let go of. Let me tell you.. Standing up in front of such a big group is NOT easy, I don't care what anyone says, but it's even harder when you are sharing such personal feelings and emotions.
I know I may have already said this, but I'm going to say it again and again.. my squad is AHHHH-MAZING! God broke our hearts for what breaks His. As each person stood and shared their deepest, darkest secrets we gathered around them, lifted them up, and comforted them in ways only God could make possible.
My emotions were on total overdrive, so I could only share one things I was held a slave of. My whole life I have found my worth, love, and acceptance from a man. Not just one man, but many men. I have gone through life the past few years jumping from one relationship to the next, never wanting to be alone. I became a mold of what they thought I should act like, look like, and even think like.
But let me tell you.. there is freedom when you give it all to God. Humbling myself enough to admit that I need the love of a man, I need to feel desired and accepted, but knowing there is only one man who can give me that.. and that's God's himself! Can I tell you in the past few months since I have asked God to be my everything I have everything I've ever wanted.. AND MORE!!!
But let me be honest.. that is not all I was held in slavery to. It was anything from:
-Pride
-Lust
-Jealousy
-Unforgivingness
-Judgment
And the list goes on and on..
But let me tell you what God told me! That is NOT me, and that is NOT who I have to be. I am a new person because of the love of the Father, and the love and grace of His son, our Savior Jesus Christ.
I open my heart, and am allowing myself to be vulnerable to you all not because I want to, but because God is calling me to share the peace He has shared with me. I encourage you to all open your heart, give it all up to the Lord, and let go of whatever is holding you in slavery. There is hope, and it is through God the Father.
