I'll start by saying.. since returning from training camp life has just been a whirlwind. There is just so much to do before leaving, and for the first time in this whole process I am feeling the stress. Between making arrangements for while I'm gone, doing my India visa application, getting my travelers' health insurance, setting up a new bank account for while I'm abroad, making and going to last minute doctor appointments, packing and organizing what I need and what I really won't be needing, and SOOOO much more!
I have felt cut off from my social life, because these preparations have consumed my life. I am feeling guilty, and it all hit me hard when my sister pointed out her concerns about me not spending enough time with everyone as well. OUCH. That hurt to hear. Being the people pleaser I am I, of course want to make everyone happy. That includes my family, friends, employers, church family, financial donors, my mobilizer, squad and teammates, and everyone in between. And then it hit me.. What does God have to say about this?? Am I making HIM happy? Certainly not.. because I haven't been giving Him the time He deserves, or even gone to Him for much guidance.
So today is a new day. I give it all up to God. Just saying those words I can feel a weight lifted off my chest. God is faithful, and He has provided for me up to this point, there is no reason to believe He won't in the time to come. He has faithfully got me to meet my first two financial deadlines, sped up my visa application process, and so many other things.
So today.. as I finish up a few e-mails and things, I will shut my computer off and spend time with family, doing our weekly Bible study. I will lift my prayers and praises to Him, and I WILL NOT STRESS. He will provide the time and means in which to get what needs to get done, done. And as for the next two weeks my focus will be on Him, and those around me who uplift and empower me.
So what will you do today? Will you continue to stress, worry, stare at your "to-do" lists not knowing where to start? Or will you go to God? Asking God for guidance, peace, and strength and energy to do what needs to be done. I pray that God speaks to us all, reminding us to "not be anxious, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." -Philippians 4: 6-7
With Love,
Bri Legan
