I am going to be pretty vulnerable in this blog and just let everyone know where i’m at and what i’m struggling with for this upcoming journey. I learned along time ago that when we believe God for miracles our faith can be crazy strong, but our flesh and emotions can trick us into thinking we are in unbelief. Every risk I’ve ever taken has been in a place where i know God said go, but i was definitely shaking as i stepped out. Everything in my natural mind told me i was crazy and that i was going to fail, but God said different so i did it scared. I refused to bow to the fear and the lies that i was going to fail. If i would have submitted to those voices which i have at times in the past i would never know what God had in store for me because i would have never stepped out far enough for him to make his move. Faith requires action, Peter could have had all the faith in the world to walk on the sea with Jesus, but it wasn’t until he stepped out of the boat that his faith was activated.
I faced quite a bit of disappointment in my life and every time I choose to take risk and trust God again the fear of those past disappointments tries to creep up on me. The truth is sometimes it does, but I chose along time ago to say yes to God no matter what the circumstance. I have chosen not to allow my past disappointments to dictate my future.
I have said yes to the race and yes to my team, but I am struggling. I’ve been working pretty hard, but a lot of things seem to be shaking at the moment. I do believe God has called me to this race i’ve tested it and prayed about it a lot. I’ve prayed about the timing and the race itself and i just keep hearing keep pressing forward. It would be easy to give up, but what about all the people that need the love of Jesus? I honestly do believe this is the time for me to go and to press forward. So I will press forward and keep paving through, but i ask that you would pray for me. Pray against discouragement and fear of disappointment. Pray that God will bring in the finances and equipment for this trip. No matter what comes I say YES! I refuse to back down or shy away from taking risk or believing in God for the miraculous! I’ve tasted of his goodness and once you’ve had a taste their’s no going back to your old belief system or way of doing things.
Thank you for taking the time out of your day to read this blog, i am truly grateful!
Bless you
