a silly and somewhat incorrect way to put it, but on the deeper side of it, it’s meaning to me means more then i can discribe between me and God, in the movie Ernest go’s to camp, you have Ernest who is the guy eveybody thinks and knows to be nothing more then the lowest man at the camp, the lowest servent, a slave with a dream yet he works and lives for the sake of those around him and never worries about or concerns him self with be’n happy, rather he endures the loneiness for the sake of others, and lived as thou he was nothing, but in the end it was him who was the great worrier who with out him they would of lost everything, “and pls don’t take me wrong i don’t want this to come out as if i am boasting about myself, i can only boast in the Lord and what he is do’n in me and call’n me into” the simple way to explain it, God has been really deal’n with me bout stuff in my past, and i carried a great shame with me thou i was free of the sin it self, the shame was still there tell’n me i was not worth it to be anything other then the lie that i was, not worth it to be heard, not worth it to hear Gods voice, or be any grater in Him then just a slave, so through the process of God and the Holy Spirirt deal’n with me bout be’n rebaptized and y, he aloud all the shame to come back up and at the same time as he showed me the sysmble off Ernest, that sysmble to me sparks up a Godly courage to be myself to be that worrier and storng pillar he has called me to, witch i know is only a small part of it, only the begaining, at first i thought it was just the enemy try’n to distract me, but i realized that or rather admited that i have been live’n a lie and never be’n or let’n people see the real me, simpley because i belived i wasn’t worth it and wasn’t worth be’n heard or known, cause of that grate shame, and in knowing pretty much everything there is to know bout baptisum, i knew my heart was never in the right place when i did it the first time and so i know that was part of the wall thats been between me and God along with all the shame and lies i belived bout myself, so it served as a witness that i was finely die’n to that old self to all that shame and to the person i never was ment to be, or should i say die’n to that person that hid the real Brandon that very very few people know, and God has called me son in whom he is well plesed, i cry just think’n bout it, and he gave one of the girls a vision of me be’n incaesd in stone, and God broke the stone and it all fell to the gournd like dust and i was free 😀 and have’n the Ernest sysmble still poping up and hearing that song thats in the movie really speakes mountains to me, it gives me a Godly courage and a strong confidance to not be afraid anymore of what other people think and not be afraid to be myself in Christ, just like in the movie where ole boy is shooting at Ernest at point blank range and the bullets can’t touch him, it is so with the Lord, He is riseing me up to that a worrier and strong pillar for Him and i can be brave and confident in knowing that nothing can harm me that no mater what he has basicaly made me invinceble, like one of davids mighty men, yet i still do all i can to stay humble and not come across as boasting bout myself, but only boasting in what he is do’n, the same day i got baptized i became really sick that night, i haven’t thrown up like that in 10 years, and then the next day my sinouses or alergys how ever you spell it, jacked up real bad and i couldn’t breath much and my voice was jacked up and i couldn’t hardly talk, its was very fustrating cause i have felt so free and open and not afraid to be me for the first time ever, and i couldn’t even funtion right, but the day we got here in Apolo, after 45hrs and then another 15hrs of bus rides, they had a church service that night and i was finly able to breath and funtion, and in the church clear as day carved in wood is that same sysmble, and soon as i seen it that Godly courage rises back up in me and gets me exicted, and soon as i seen it God gave me Jeremiah 1:17-19 (Get your self ready! Stand up and say to them what ever i command you. Do not be terrified by them, or i will terrify you before them, Today i have made you a fortifide city, an iron pillar and a bronze wall to stand agaist the whole land, agaist the kings of judah, its officals, its priest and the people of the land, They will fight agaist you but not overcome you, for i am with you and will rescue you, declares the Lord.)
again i don’t want to sound as if i’m boasting to myself, i belive that this month is kind’a like more traning for what god has for me, i belive if i let him he can and will use me for just like he says, to stand up and confront rulers of the lands and to tear down those nations that defile Gods holy name and to raise up nations to fear the Lord, i know that sounds pretty outrageous but i know and have confidance that God will give me the words to speake in the propor timeing, for me the thougt of it exites me in the Lord 😀 but again i right this blog only to boast bout God is do’n not for myself,
