ok so like I listen to music more then anything, Music is my world for the most part, it not only gets me through but also a way god talks to me, I’m very cautious to what I listen to and will set down and try to interpret what massage a song is really putting in my head, and heart. and can discern when a song has a lot of spiritual junk/demons, I’ve listened a lot of diff stuff, just bout everything you can think of from Norwegian death metal to Celtic, to country and Christian, you name it, but for the most part my initial play list that I keep on repeat has been almost the same 20 songs for the last ten years, I have only added a few new ones just in the last two years,
looking back the new songs god has brought me to know now actually correspond with each other as I’ve moved from season to season, and I could almost tell a full story to you by playing a few back to back, but then I realize everyone translates music differently and would most likely not get what i get,
try’n to keep this short so I will only go over two songs that I have come to know recently, the first one is a song called saltwater heart, witch If you’ve read my previous blogs bout how I went through a season were I was mad at god and gave him the finger, the same day that I repented and was able to forgive myself for turn’n my back on god I found this song, i had abandoned ship on god and ran inland away from my true identity,
when I went back to god it was like I went back to the sea, and as the song go’s
maybe I could wash clean
maybe I could wash clean
all my land locked dreams
and maybe I could believe again
When I’m on your shore again
I can feel the ocean
I can feel your open arms
like pure emotion
finally free again
like my own explosion
When I’m on your shore again
I can feel the ocean
saltwater running through my veins like a blind spot,
like I got caught, saltwater like a tear-drop
with a salt water heart
so with this song on repeat for days and months and added to my main play list, I could find rest in my father just waiting on his shore, Then Training Camp came, and a new song I had not known before (witch is odd cause I’ve found that it has been one of the most well know and run in the ground worship songs out right now haha) was played almost every time they did worship, actually there was two songs, and they like spoke to me Huge cause its just how I think, how my mind processes stuff, the great vast dangerous sea with ships/vessels that with out god have no chance to conquer the mighty sea. one that unfortunately is not on iTunes yet, the other of those songs was Oceans by hillsong united, it starts out with.
You call me out upon the waters
The great unknown where feet may fail
And there I find You in the mystery
In oceans deep
My faith will stand,
(And the part that repeats like 6 times)
Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Savior
a rare thing happened on my 12 hr drive back from training camp, I never turned the radio on once, I just was cruzing in silence, and after a week at home again I still could not listen to my old play list, it just didn’t cut it for me anymore, now my play list has only 2 songs, oceans, and good good father by housefires,
you get me thou? you get my drift? I don’t have the words to explain it all, but even as great as training camp was it could have been an utterly pointless experience if I would of just stayed on the shore and not took to the water, not took the risk to walk out into the deep, let go and trust god completely. so I just want to encourage you, thou you may be on gods shore resting in his comfort and peace, I encourage you to get up and walk out into the deep, it’s there you will find how vast his love for you really is, or maybe you just need to take a few steps to just get back to his shore and rest a bit, but ether way you have to step out, it will be worth it!
