Someone said it best this morning… “One word, deprivation.” A foreign place, with foreign people, who speak a foreign language… Life with the Lord as I knew it totally changed. Not that I didn’t often sense His presence or hear Him speak but there was certainly a lack of intimate communion and worship. Spiritual emotion was almost non existent. I only broke for people when it was brought on solely by the Lord and I can count those times with a few fingers… And the flesh? ha. It could do nothing and go nowhere and I’m not speaking of the old-self, sinful nature… I was even without music for an entire three weeks at the end of my stay there. Nope, none, no escape whatsoever :), :(. And for the most part, things haven’t felt right since I’ve been back either. Apparently I’ve been scuba diving and am trying to resurface too quickly?! And that can be damaging. It’s what I was told anyway :). Of course I’m like, “What have I done wrong?” believing the decision made to come back was greatly influenced by fear…and knowing I never had complete peace about it. BUT that’s neither here nor there… just hoping now to rest in the fact He can, and will, order my steps from here and provide for all my needs…
May I not forget Who my Comforter is.
Yes, the desert is most times a very dry and lonely place but at the same time the most amazing. I know better how Amazing our Lord is and how Strong and Faithful He can be. I exhaust my own strength and stop believing I need to perform something for someone and He moves. I break and He puts me back together. I fall and He carries me. I literally say I CAN’T DO THIS…:).. and He says, good, I can. (Which we know, Lord, lol, but that’s the SCARY part!) And what I keep hearing now, for this season is, remain watchful!!
So with all of that I must also say this: I saw the Lord doing MANY amazing and wonderfully good things while following Him through Nicaragua and Costa Rica, in and through people, places and things, in which I was very BLESSED to be a part of!
He’s calling me to go back.
I was linked by the Lord to Ana Moshenek and Las Palmas De Mamre Ministries through Charles and Sarah Kaye, in Granada, Nicaragua. http://www.palmasdemamre.com/index.htm
Thank you ALL and GOD BLESS!
