Have you ever found yourself dwelling with in a paradox? That is where I find myself at the moment. We are in Nicaragua at Cicrin Orphanage and as far as I can see there is not an orphan here. When I think of an orphanage, I think of the movie Annie…  this place could not be any further from that if it had to be. The children here do not act as if they are orphans, however; they act as if they are part of a humongous family. I would expect the children to have major attitude problems, authority complexes, and issues with men, issues with love. However, that is not the case. There are not orphans here, yet there are children that understand what it means to have a spirit of adoption. These children are not here by accident they are here by divine design. 

Eph 1:5-6 having predestinated us unto the adoption of children by Jesus Christ to himself, according to the good pleasure of his will, To the praise of the glory of his grace, wherein he hath made us accepted in the beloved.

The children here have here have a certainty of the love that is freely given to them both by man and by God. It is astounding to see the children every day… they are so confident in themselves, full of love and kindness. I would attribute the success of these children to Helen the director of this orphanage. She has fought hard to ensure that the children here have self worth, value, and confidence in themselves. All of the children at Cicrin have chores that they must perform daily. Everyone here works together as a team, a cohesive unit… a family. I am learning so much by just observing the lifestyle that the people here have. It is entirely different than what we do in the states, but it is so effective. 

I am confounded by the ability for the people here to get the big picture. They are fully aware that their lives count for much more than they can accomplish alone. Their lives stand for an orphanage, a community, an island, a Kingdom. The values here inspire me in a tremendous way. Back home I lived as an island to myself. I was guilty of living for myself, attempting to better myself without regard to how I could better others. I would hoard information so that I would have value and purpose. I have realized that my value and purpose exceeds past the reach of my hand and is determined by the reach of my heart. Life should not be about bettering ourselves for sake of us alone, rather; it should be about bettering yourself and freely offering yourself to others. Freely we have received so freely we should give. I think we all acknowledge that scripture, but I am not so sure we practice that in reality. I desire to get to a point where my views and mindset is so bent on community and a Kingdom that I would truly understand what it means to give yourself away.