Hugs and the Holy Spirit

I remember doing some work for the World Race and watching Facebook at the same time and saw others posting about how they were being blessed by God and how many friends supported them back at home. I saw some the posts and I walked out of the library PISSED off at God.

I wanted a blessing from God because I was working so hard on things for The World Race and I felt like they didn't work as hard as I did and they were being blessed.

To be real I was acting like Martha did instead of Mary did waiting on Jesus for him to speak in my life about this mission calling He placed on my life.

I wanted to be in control instead of God being in control! God said to me, Blake, I am the pilot of this plane I have you on in this journey and your a passenger enjoy the ride and shut up!

Go to training camp and trust me Blake!!

I show up to training camp on Saturday having many feelings in my head at the time of What if:
The people don't like me
The staff don't like me
I admit my faults and I am judged for my past 
No one talks to me

God had something in store for me at training camp! He was working on things long before I showed up to The World Race! 

The Holy Spirit showed off to me at training camp!

From the moment I got to the campground I saw the World Race Staff waving and smiling at me!

I had some people of my M-squad give me hugs when I arrived! By the way I love hugs!! 

When I was struggling with putting up my tent I had people come over before I asked for help!

On Sunday when I there was a grieving session at camp, I was like oh no, Lord really I have to share about my hurts and struggles! God said, Blake share your hurts and be open, honest and real! I was and the group gave me comfort and assurance! No judgment and no condemnation!

The World Race staff wanted to know about my story! So many of them from Dr. Barnes, Ken, Noe, Stacy, Vanessa, and many more wanted to invest in me! I was starting to feel loved and this gave me goosebumps from the Holy Spirit!

On Monday when I was struggling with feelings of condemnation and dealing with the past the Holy Spirit showed off by having many people from M-squad and the staff come over and pray with me!!

When we were at a Men's only campfire with Seth Barnes I let my past struggles come out! So honest, open and real with the guys of M-squad. I said things I have never shared before with anyone! This was definitely the Holy Spirit working in my life!

By the end of Training Camp I was hugging everyone I saw!!

What a week!! Whew!! Thank you Jesus!!

Ephesians 4:22-25 NIV84 says," You were taught, with regard to your former way of life, to put off your old self, which is being corrupted by deceitful desires; to be made new in the attitude of your minds; and to put on the new self, created to be like God in true righteousness and holiness.

When I arrived to training camp I walked into training camp with the old self. The one who sometimes believed he was unworthy and unloved. After Training Camp I walked out with:
A community of brothers and sisters in Christ who really do love and seek Jesus!
Loved by Jesus as a Son of God
No condemnation
First time in years I can walk with feeling at peace with who I am in Christ
The past doesn't control me anymore!!
Holy Spirit Glow which is more radiant than I walked into camp with on my face!
Cared for as a valuable member of Christ's body!!

I am a new man in Christ!! So excited for what God is going to do in me next in me and through me!! 

Thank you Jesus!!