The world is a very scary place, especially today. Fear is not unnatural and it is an important mechanism that God gave us. It helps us sense danger and makes us aware of situations we should be more cautious around. Like any part of the world and traveling, The World race comes with risk. The lord has been teaching me a lot these last few weeks since being accepted about fear and trusting Him! During these last few weeks, I have had the feeling of fear and safety on my mind constantly and all the while asking God for peace and an explanation of why he has led me to this opportunity, but has flooded my thoughts with fear and insecurity. I was having a very hard time hearing him, but as I was in grief counseling today, my counselor spoke for The Lord and I learned that the Lord has been challenging me to trust him with everything sooner than I expected. I knew once I hit the field, there was no choice but to trust him fully but he knew I needed to start NOW!
Trusting God with everything including safety is a very hard task. I will not say its easy and I am on this journey with you guys. Trusting God means giving up all control and letting go. I like having a sense of control and being comfortable. However, having this mindset is what encouraged the development of my eating disorder. I had a sense of control when it came to food while the chaos of my family was something I could not control. I have since learned through my recovery process, that I was surviving by that control, however that this was no place to live. I had no self worth and it just spiraled out of control. Until, I gave the control up to The Lord and He then began to help me see who I was in Him and not in the Earthly things. The battle of having and eating disorder is a constant recovery process but knowing that it is completely in Gods hands and he loves me just as I am, where I am makes the fight that much easier.
As I look to this sense of fear as I embark on The World Race, I am not going to entertain the idea until I am blue in the face and completely overtaken by fear. I have already started that. I am going to rest and be still like he tells us to be and let him lead and protect my squad and all the other squads on the field. He has a plan and I know He will get us through if we trust him fully and with all our hearts and desires. I know that Adventures in Missions has protocols in place and works tirelessly in the area of safety and security. America is unsafe just as the rest of the world. We cannot limit ourselves because of fear, we need to LIVE and giving that desire and need up to the Lord is the most challenging thing but also the most rewarding thing we can do! This is a journey that I cannot do on my own both financially and spiritually.
Prayers for the moment:
1. That I can continue to give this all up to The Lord and feel at peace
2. For the support raising process and that God provides the funds for me to go! If you feel called to donate please click on the donate link at the top of my blog.
3. The overall safety of myself and my soon to be squad and teammates as we prepare ourselves for the field and while we are on the field! It would be much appreciated to have a blanket of prayers on us so we make it home safely to our families.
Thank you for reading this blog! If you are able to give financially, please consider being apart of my journey, if you feel led to pray please keep myself and my team in your prayers! 🙂
