I’m coming home. America. L.A. After that, I don’t
know. Maybe Spain. Maybe around the world shooting documentaries, maybe the
Midwest. Only God knows, but for right now God is calling me back to L.A. I
don’t know how long I will be there, but He knows. The exciting part about it
is, I have no idea why He wants me back there. I think I know, but God has a
lovely way of surprising me with his ideas, and they’re usually way better than
my own.
Last year when I left, I packed up my belongings,
stored them at Amy Karman’s apt, returned my leased car with the help of Sarah
Weichland. I moved out of my apartment in sunny Santa Monica, gave my dog to my
best friend Lindsay and now he’s at my parents in Michigan. I left amazing friends and spiritual
moms and dads. Left one of my favorite places (Easy Fitness) with some of my
favorite people. Left any dreams of becoming an actress in L.A. Left my
community of people faithfully supporting me through thick and thin.
I was pretty sure, that I wasn’t coming back to
stay. As of right now, God is really putting it on my heart to go back for a
season. I’ve applied to G42, a leadership academy in Spain, www.g42leadershipacademy.org If
I went it would be in October and it would 6 months of community living,
shaping God’s vision for my life, doing missions and getting much needed alone
time with God.
The best thing about me coming back to L.A. is God
providing everything I need. There’s only so much I can do over here in
Cambodia to make money and put it towards all the things I need. I basically
can’t make money. So I pray, trust, listen and ask God to open doors and
provide. I get to have childlike faith and come to my Daddy God with all my
questions and needs. I’m realizing how much I’ve tried to do on my own in the
past, and I like letting Him guide me.
To be honest with you, it’s not easy to live a life
by faith, but it’s better. I love seeing God work out miracles in my life. We
were talking the other day and I was just reminding him of all he had done.
“Remember when I had no job, no money saved and you told me to apply to the
race?” “Remember when my friends did an awesome benefit for me for free to
raise money for my trip?” “Remember when you brought me amazing people to
support me on this journey?” “Remember when I needed to raise $15, 000 for my
World Race Account and you provided it all a quarter of the way through my
trip?” “Remember when I asked you to take care of all the details of my move,
my dog and the personal funds I would need, and you did above and beyond?” The
conversation went on for a while, and I just started crying thinking about how
He has provided for me. He has put so many amazing people in my life to follow
my journey, support me and love me through a huge step in my life. He has been
so good.
As I look to the next 25 days on the race, I’m
equally as excited about coming home as I am about being here. He has been so
faithful to me and I truly have nothing to fear or worry because He’s got
my future in His hands. The same hands that have my name engraved on them. The
same hands that created me. The same hands that reach out to me everyday. The
same hands that I needed a year ago when I started this crazy journey. The same
hands that have carried me from each country to the next safely. The hands of
the potter that shape me and mold me. The same hands that will guide me when I’m back in L.A.
Please pray for me as I transition back home. I’m
completely trusting God for work, a place to stay, transportation and lots of
LOVE. Feel free to email me at [email protected]
for any encouragement you have or opportunities that you may come across.
God has been so good to me this year, and I get to
experience the gift of His LOVE everyday, It comes in many forms and for me
this year, it’s come in the form of you, supporting me. I didn’t just go do
good things for people all year, I partnered with the King of King’s and the
Lord of Lords to bring hope, pure love, peace and provision to people He gave
to me as a gift. I’m not stopping after this is over. I’m going to continue
what God has put on my heart wherever I go. You are a part of me being
transformed, set free, full of joy and full of purpose. I pray that I can spend
time with all of you when I get home, cause I’ve been missing you. See
you in 25 days.
