Kingdom Come
The feels are in full force. 10 days have past of chilly bucket showers, 7 am workouts, sore throats, back pain, crickets for breakfast, singing loud, and being totally rocked by The Lord. 55 teammates, 4 squad leaders, 2 squad coaches, 1 squad mentor all equate to 1 church family. We danced, laughed, cried, worshipped and grew as one solid unit.
Being thrown into a situation where you literally know no one for ten days, sleeping on the ground and being pushed completely out of your comfort zone stretched me- physically, emotionally and spiritually. I walked into training camp thinking I would learn a thing or two about traveling, ministry, children, and visas. Boy, was I schooled.
I thought I could float by not letting anyone get too close to me. allowing the inner shapings’ of my heart be invisible. The Lord stripped those defenses from me- in order to get closer to him. I was taught some very valuable lessons the last ten days. Reminding me that people connect through vulnerabilities.
In this life we all have vulnerabilities that shape us in the men and woman we become. like many others I hide these things. Building up a strong fortress of self-protection from being hurt, or wronged. All the shame, guilt or baggage I have been carrying around that I thought I had addressed was stirred to the forefront of my heart in Gainesville, Ga. No matter where we are in the world, whether it be in Bangladesh, Nepal, Germany, or Tennessee we all have similar feelings of shame or guilt.
Although I addressed the inner most workings of my heart I never gave these things to the Lord to work out. Setting the unsettledness of my heart at the foot of the cross allowed for such peace, joy, and contempt.
Before training camp I never looked at The Lord as a father.. I have a great relationship with my daddio so it felt weird or different to look at God as my father. Similar to my own dad- The lord is patient, gentle, loving, encouraging and never condemning. In this new light I have two fathers, one earthly & one heavenly. I learned how I view God is how I communicate with him- I am a child of God. So, I will communicate to God like I would a father.
In times of unsureness or doubt I am seeing the freedom to turn to the lord to help with my vulnerabilities. I am astonished by our fathers grace. Grace doesn’t ignore my sins, grace deals with my sins and sets me free of condemnation. Grace makes us all Sons & Daughters of The Father, it does not keep tally marks of mistakes. Instead Grace looks forward to my future. God has huge plans for me and my new family.
I am Redeemed. I am saved. I am free.
I could go on about what activities we did at training camp. I felt as though, the journey of vulnerability and spiritualty are more significant than details of chilly bucket showers, 7 am workouts, sore throats, back pain, and crickets for breakfast.
Hold yaaaa horses. Training Camp was undeniably incredible. But this is just the beginning. In order to get on the plane to India October 1. I am trusting the Lord to provide $2,000 to meet the goal of $10,000 by September 16th. I cannot wait to spread the word, and love to the people in 11 countries. I ask that you would prayerfully consider financially supporting me. At any cost, however you can help, I am beyond grateful. I love you all and am so blessed for your support. Continue praying for me and following along in this journey.
XO B
