Christmas was bittersweet this year…
So sweet because I was able to spend it with the people that I love, and we had such a wonderful time!
Yet bitter..because there was a lot of sickness and death I heard about, and even experienced on that day.
My body was physically overworked, and when I’m tired, my immune system shuts down and I start to feel sick. Emotionally I was pretty drained as well…from crying that morning while having to let something die that needed to.
With so many physical deaths around, and my own having to “let things die”. I’ve been reminded of the grieving process. So far, this is what I’ve learned:
After getting over the denial of the death, there is
Step 1: Grieving
Step 2: Anger/Hatred toward the person
Step 3: Acceptance and moving on
This thing I’ve had to let go of has taken some time.. It’s been a while that Ive been alternating between Steps 1 and 2. But Step 3 is finally starting.. Thank God..
You know, I don’t think we’ll ever fully understand why God asks us to let go of certain people, or understand why they leave us..either from this earth or just from our lives…but I’ve decided to put my unwavering trust in Him.
His intentions are always for good… they are never malicious…they are never with bad intent..they are always for “the good of those who love Him and are called according to His purpose”
I think that’s the key. .”HIS purpose”..not mine.. not what I think is best.. but what He knows is best for me. And what will bring HIM credit and honor.. Because He’s the only One who deserves it..
And you know what..When people look at my life.. any milestone..any decision..I want people to see God’s awesome, gracious, miraculous work…not mine..
He’s the resurrection and the life..He’s the only one who can bring life out of death..and so I’ve had to let die..but now I’m ready for the life that will come from it. The life that He’s going to bring from it.
And boy, is it exciting!
Agenda: Love,
Bethsaida
