I have been back in Arizona for almost three weeks now and the number question is always, “WHAT’S NEXT?” I spent a lot of time praying and just trying to figure out where I am supposed to be. All of my family and friends that are like family live in Tucson, AZ and that is where I call home. But then I visited Flagstaff, and it felt so good to be around my peers who could relate with my spirit. People I could be real with and was free to be me.
And I started to ask myself, where is home? As I tried to think about all of this with my limited understanding, I got overwhelmed and confused.
Then one day as I was sitting with the Lord, I felt such peace in his presence and I told him, “I don’t care where I am as long as I am in your presence.” And then it hit me. Everything seemed so clear and obvious. His presence is my home. Everywhere I go, I find people that I love and care deeply for, but more than anything else and more than anyone else, I LOVE his presence.
Coming back off of the race has made my growth and closeness to the heart of God so obvious to me. Because for the first time in my life, I truly felt the love for God that supersedes every other relationship, friendship and comfort in this world. All I want is him. Not to say that it’s always easy to give those things up, but there is something inside of me that has to have God and will NOT agree to anything less. I’m not afraid, but I trust my dad.
And so, what you all have been waiting for….WHAT’S NEXT?
My heart’s desire and my passion is to see young people lead this coming generation and go out into the world bringing the Kingdom of God to earth. I want to see a generation fully engaged with the Spirit, walking in truth and freedom, confident of who they are and who their God is. And so I am currently applying to lead a World Race Squad in January of 2011, where I would empower, support and raise up leaders who are going and serving and loving with all that is inside of them. I would travel with them for four months and then release them.
This opportunity excites me and challenges me. I am ready for this new season in my life and would love your prayer! Please be praying for me as I transition, as I raise more financial support, and as I walk into the plans that God has for me in these next few months.
