As the race gets closer to an end, I have been thinking more about home. This trip has forever changed me, but it is so easy to doubt the change. It is so easy to fear that I might slip into being the person I once was.
God has brought me through so much in the past three years and I never want to go back to the person I used to be.
God has taken the broken pieces in my life and made them whole again.
He has shown me how to live by faith and walk according to His will for my life.
He has shown me how to be confident in who He has made me to be.
He has broken my heart for what breaks His.
He has opened my eyes to the truth of the word; that there are lost, needy, and dying people in the world that need Him. Not only that, but I am the one that God wants to use to bring Jesus to those people.
He has shown me that the things of this world are NOTHING in comparison to living completely abandoned to His will for my life.
He has shown me that I will never be truly satisfied living for myself any longer.
He has shown me that He is my all in all, everything, the whole shebang! Without him I am nothing and have nothing.
He has told me that I am His beloved, His pure and spotless bride, and His child.
He has told me that He wants to use me to bring others to Him if I simply sacrifice my desires for His desires.
Yes, fear is sometimes there in my heart of the past and of the future.
I fear my flesh and I fear the decisions I will make.
I fear that I will not be good enough for His plans for my life.
I fear that I will lose sight of Him again and choose my desires.
I fear that I will miss out on His will for my life because I am too focused on my plans.
I fear that these past eleven months will mean nothing and I will become complacent again.
I fear that I will forget the faces of those that are lost, needy, & dying in this world and settle for a life of comfort.
I fear that I will mess up or fail God.
But I know that….
I am no longer the same girl I once was eight months ago, one year ago, or even two years ago.
I am His and He is mine! My life is His. I want nothing from this world.
I count all my desires as rubbish in comparison to attaining the goal, which is seeing my savior face to face one day!
Teaching the kids how to sing
Leading worship in church
One of the beautiful sunsets here in Kenya.
