We’ve all heard the nursery rhyme…
Humpty Dumpty sat on a wall.
Humpty Dumpty had a great fall.
All the kings horses and all the kings men couldn’t put humpty together again.
But the rhyme stops there. Why is that?? What happens to Humpty? Does he stay on the ground, broken and in pieces? Is he waiting for the king, since his men and horses could do nothing for him?
We had month 8 debrief this past week and it also came with team changes. My old team, Girasoles, were having our last hoorah as a team. We knew our team had to be changed because our team leader, Lydia, was stepping down after 8 months of excellent leadership. So we weren’t taken by surprise when the team changes were announced. Before we split up, we sat down to have lunch together. There was a slight tension in the air because we knew some people needed to address things to the team that they had been keeping inside. Our main goal that month was to be open and honest with our team and get issues resolved as soon as possible to help us grow. Sabrina spoke up and gave me some constructive feedback that I had heard once before but not in this way. Jonny, one of our squad leaders, followed it up with some of his wisdom. The constructive feedback I received had one root problem, PRIDE.
Ugh…pride is such an ugly thing. It blinds you so much so that you think you are immune to the things that people normally deal with. This pride had snuck up on me and was ruining who God had created me to be.
That night in the worship set, Bill Swan had told the men to pray for the women. So the guys moved around and began to pray for us. Bill Swan came and laid his hands on my head and said a simple prayer. “Lord, release the joy that is inside of her…let it be contagious to everyone she meets.” It was a wonderful prayer but left me wondering what is suppressing my joy. I want to be overflowing with the joy that comes from my salvation and to be that type of person that lights a fire in others because of HIS joy in me.
That same night after the session, we were practicing the worship set for the next day and we began to play Break Every Chain by Will Reagan and the United Pursuit Band. I knew that this was my chance to make things right. That’s when it happened for me. I got down on my knees and just cried out for God to take my heart full of pride and replace it with the heart of Jesus. I felt the Holy Spirit truly interceding for me. I want to be everything He is calling me to be and to walk in the humility and joy that my Savior has.
I got up from that spot and I felt so much freedom! So much weight had been lifted off my shoulders. I knew that God had given me a heart transplant. I could feel it!
The Lord gave Liv a word for me. He said through obedience and submission, I would have the joy that I was looking for.
I took that in two parts, obedience and submission to the leadership and authority that God places over me and obedience and submission in the whispers of the Holy Spirit. Whether that means spending time with the Lord or obeying him when he says “lay hands on the sick and see them healed”.
I am Humpty Dumpty! I was sitting on that wall, looking out at the world and suddenly I fell. I was lying there broken and unable to fix myself. Not even the king’s horses and men could put me back together again. Yet, unlike humpty’s story, MY KING, Jesus, came to my rescue. He picked up all the pieces, put me back together and taught me ways to stay whole.
It’s only through His strength and wisdom that I am able to lay down my burdens, pick up my cross and walk with my savior in humility and joy.
Have you ever felt like Humpty Dumpty?
Do you need a King to put your pieces back together again?
Reach out. My God is faithful! He sees your heart and hears your cry.
He is ABLE to put you back together again.
He is MORE than able to make you whole.
