I wrote this last night before I went to bed.
So, I don’t necessarily know how to describe Launch.
It was nothing like Training Camp. But in a way it feels very similar to Training Camp.
Before coming to Launch I was afraid. Let’s be honest. I was competely terrified. I was scared to leave my comfortable life. I was afraid to leave everything I knew and everyone I loved so dearly.
But day after day the Lord encouraged me to pursue Him–to seek His kingdom, and not to let anything stop me from that, including my fears.
So I came, trusting that the Lord would help me keep my eyes on Him. Trusting that as I leave my comfortable life, that He would be all the comfort that I would need.
I got to Launch, and I saw all the familiar faces of my wonderful squad. It was like a reunion. No, really, it was. Hugs went all around as people arrived in the hotel. The stories began over what went down over the awkward last month–but they were stories about how people made the most of the time they had with their loved ones. It was precious to see my teammates and squads faces as they shared about their final summer month.
It was during these first few hours that the Lord calmed my anxious heart. He started easing my heart into complete trust of what He’s doing in my heart and in my life, and in the lives of those around me.
So as I sit in my hotel room, getting ready to leave the country in less than a day, my heart can’t stop wondering what might happen over this upcoming year. What kinds of adventures are we going to go on together? What kinds of awesome, amazing things am I going to witness the Lord doing? Who am I going to meet who will change me and shape me? How am I going to bring the Kingdom to life?
It’s thrilling. It’s exhilarating.
And the Lord is so very good to be allowing me to walk with Him in this. I’m praying that He shows His power in so many ways in my life, through my life. And that I would be humble and dependent on Him every step of the way. I am in need of Him to continue His work in me.
Am I ready to Launch? Not in the least. But that’s the greatness of my God. He can still use me, even when I don’t necessarily feel ready. I’m about to be Launched. And it’s gonna be good.
