The Lord has been teaching me a lot over the past few years. One of the things He’s been teaching me is to serve Him wholeheartedly wherever He has placed me, for as long as He keeps me there. It’s definitely a hard thing to do. I remember a year ago, after I had decided to move back to NM in June, I was faced with a decision to keep serving my local church or to start breaking ties so I wouldn’t hurt when I left. God had me choose to invest myself. And I did. With every ounce of my being I invested as much as I could into that local body. It was the greatest blessing I have ever experienced.
God is teaching me the same here in NM. I am leaving for the Race in September. But God has me investing all of myself here. With my job, my local church, my family, etc., He’s showing me that I need to invest myself. I need to. I can’t afford to not serve. I can’t afford not to invest myself. Because that’s where God grows me and changes me. And that’s where I see the Lord move mountains.
So I have recently taken on a position in my local church helping in the worship ministry. It can be a lot at times. Especially with everything else that I have going on in my head, heart, and life.
But it’s been such a blessing at the same time. I love doing stuff in the background. That’s where I thrive. I love serving people and helping them accomplish tasks. So, the Lord was definitely working when He put me in this position.
This position is part of my story, I promise. But we’ll come back to it in a few.
I get overwhelmed. I don’t know if any of you know this, but I do. Way too easily. I break down a lot. I cry a lot.
My mom knows this very well; she’s one of the few that I let in when I’m overwhelmed and scared. She’s seen me at those moments when I just can’t keep going–not without help anyway. But she has always been faithful to point me to the truth.
This morning I got overwhelmed, but she wasn’t there to help me through this.
Let me tell you the story.
So, I was preparing for the service, and I was given a list of things that should happen over the next week.
Worship started–I was singing this week–and I forgot one of the harmony parts.
Then the sermon started–and I was a little distracted, okay, a lot distracted. I was mentally planning out my week, and I started to have a mild anxiety attack. There was just so much to do–between things at home and work and mentoring two teenage girls and this position at the local church and fundraising and blogging and talking to/hanging out with friends–the load/burden of my week started to suffocate me.
And all I could think about was how I wanted a hug from my dad, and he’s not here for that.
So I just started crying.
I left the worship service to go cry out in the welcome center and ask God to start calming my anxious heart.
And that’s what He did.
Because He’s faithful like that.
He kept reminding me that He has great things in store; I just have to trust Him.
He reminded me that my load is to much for me to bear on my own. That’s why He’s supposed to carry it.
He let His love and peace crash down on me.
In those sweet moments out in the welcome center, the Lord came and took the anxiety.
The Lord was good to me, as always.
He reminded me that even when I have felt like I have too much to do, He has always been faithful to help me accomplish the task. He reminded me that I need to keep investing myself. I need to keep serving Him. I need to keep loving the people around me. I need to be faithful to the task at hand–even if it will end in a few months.
After the sermon ended, I went back into the service to listen to any announcements I needed to know about. As I was standing there, I was reminded about a song that I have recently fallen in love with: “You Alone” by Seth Condrey.
In this song, Seth declares that the Lord is his help. He declares that God is where he will choose to place his trust.
This has been my heart’s cry all this morning. God is my help forever. I will trust Him. I choose to wait on Him.
Even when I feel overwhelmed, when I’m scared, when I feel too weak, I will trust Him. I will trust Him.
So what am I going to keep doing over these next months? I’m going to keep serving. I’m going to follow Christ in this. I’m going to trust that He cares for me and will help me accomplish what He needs me to.
He is good.
He is faithful.
And I can trust Him.
Praise His great and glorious name!
