God has been revealing to me lately that in order to follow
Him, you must completely surrender everything else. And by everything, He means
everything: fear, doubt,
insecurities, etc. So I looked at my life and thought, “I have let all those
things go. Look at me, I’m traveling around the world spreading the kingdom,
and I plan on living in Africa or some third world country, so I must be fully
surrendered.” But when thinking about spiritual life changes, changes that
require me to allow God to FULLY transform my life, the first thought in my
head was shocking. “How in the world will I tell my family and friends what God
is doing in my life?”
Someone told me yesterday that if you walk in fear, you don’t
walk in freedom with Christ. It’s as simple as that; one or the other. And I
realized that I walk in fear. Not of the nations or the lost, not of the people
I sit next to in a coffee shop, but the people that know me in and out; the
people that I know will always love me. But somehow those are the people that
scare me the most.
I want to bring the Kingdom to Earth. I want to heal the
sick. I want to use the power and authority given to me by God. I want to
literally be the hands and feet of Christ. I want to be given the nations. But
at the end of the day, the only thought in my head is, “How would I tell my
family?”
So that ends now. A friend of mine once told me, “Be careful
not to get in over your head in that crazy spiritual stuff. Some people just
take it over the edge.” But why wouldn’t I want that? Why wouldn’t I want to be
the person that can say, “God used my faith to heal a blind man. God used my
love to heal a broken and bleeding heart.”?
I know I can trust God. I know I can trust Him. And that means that I trust Him to radically
transform my life, but also I trust Him with what happens to those around me as
well. I belong to Jesus. And I will settle for nothing less than ALL that He
has for me. I am tired of being worried of opinions and criticism. I’m ready to
shake the world for Christ.
“Set a fire down in my soul that I can’t contain, that I can’t
control. I want more of you, God. I want more of you.”
