Now, it’s not like I get dressed up, nervous about a knock on the door. It usually ends up randomly happening;
One was in Thailand. For the first time, I was actually realizing that the Lord LOVES me. In Song of Solomon 2:9 it seems almost that the beloved is beyond lovesick! “Behold there he stands behind our wall, gazing through the windows, looking through the lattice” Granted, if any guy did that in real life, it be a little off-putting (Why is the song “Invisible” by Clay Aiken running through my head?)
Think about this though, the Lord is LOVESICK over me and over you.
A few friends and I were in Bangkok and decided to go to one of the King’s gardens (fitting for a date with a King, no?) Now, this is an absolutely breathtaking place. As we walk the Lord is just blowing me away with this overwhelming feeling of love. He kept speaking over me how He sees me. How I’m more to Him than anything I was looking at right then. “Yes, this place is beautiful, but you are so much more to me.”
Dang God, you got some mad wooing skills.
The most recent date was last night. My team and I arrived in Riga to meet up with the squad before heading to Month 11. For an introvert, being thrown into a group of 48 people can be overwhelming and on top of that, some of us planned on going to a ballet later that night so I knew if I didn’t get out soon, it would be girl chaos when everyone started to get ready. So, I got ready super early, grabbed my bag with bible, pen, notebook and iPod in hand and headed to the closest coffee shop.
I started looking through the menu when I heard “Let’s go on date”.
I randomly ordered a salad and some kind of coffee. I then put in my headphones and started just worshiping Him. The food and coffee came and it just so happened to be one of the best salads I’ve ever had in my life. Top notch.
After some sweet time with the Lord, some of my closest friends came and we just sat and talked.
Amazing food, sweet time with my Love, and great friends? Yeah, this date is going great so far.
Then it was time for the Ballet.
We went to the 18th International Baltic Ballet Festival Gala Concert. I was sitting there, watching some of the most amazing dancers doing some of the most amazing things, thinking about how beautiful each one of them were with just how they looked and their movements when I heard “You are so beautiful to me”.
Yes, it was like one of those cheesy movie scenes when a couple is standing watching a sunset but really only the girl is looking at the sunset and the guy is looking at her. She goes “Wow, it’s so beautiful” and the guy goes (ready for this?) “Yeah…sure is…” while still looking at her.
I’m not much of the “sappy movie” type. I despise the Notebook and such movies as that but when I was sitting in that Opera house and I heard my Lord say that to me while I was looking at something so beautiful, it felt like my heart leaped.
Is this weird to you? It shouldn’t be.
Why shouldn’t the Lord take you on dates? Why shouldn’t He pursue His bride?
Granted, He’s setting the bar pretty high for my future husband to live up to but why shouldn’t He?
Women, He calls us beautiful every day yet so many of can’t hear it cause of what we are telling ourselves. We need to stop speaking so He can speak over us because what He is speaking is what our souls and hearts need more than anything.
So yes, I am very much so lovesick.
