Sorry this is a long one!
In May 2010 I graduated from Southeastern University about 2,000 miles away from home. I met my best friends there and I experienced so many beautiful things while being there. My senior year of college we were having our big campus revival and Erwin McManus was speaking. I remember walking back to my dorm room with a consuming fire in my chest, the feeling was so strong that all I could do is get on my knees and worship. During that worship time I felt the Lord tell me that he was taking me out of my home and away from my family because it was time for me to begin my ministry. Well, after I heard that I was consumed with extreme fear. I remember telling the Lord that I wasn't ready. My senior year I fought with the Lord about that but I finally came to terms with it. By graduation I was ready to conquer the world. I was ready to spread the word of God and just do his will. I got an amazing job with YouthWorks and I went to Caguas, Puerto Rico for the summer. As the summer came to an end I remember being so excited because I knew that I would not being living in Springfield, Ma for much longer, God was going to move me somewhere else because he told me he was going to move me away from my family and my home.
I arrive to Springfield the first week of August with such a desire to do God's will. I knew that he was going to provide me with an amazing job in the field that I want while waiting for God to direct me elsewhere. Well, to my disappointment nothing happened. I couldn't get a job and I was still in Springfield. As the months passed I became extremely discouraged and honestly lost hope. I became consumed with anger and even some jealously because I saw that my friends all had jobs and knew where their life was taking them while I sat at home clueless. I couldn't understand why God would tell me that he was going to send me out to then have me stuck in Springfield, Ma. The months passed and I was still feeling a little down about the whole situation so I began to dedicate more time to the Lord and my family. As early summer came along I had a revelation!
Maybe there was a reason why God had me in Springfield after all. Maybe God wanted me to spend more time with him and grow in his word. Maybe God wanted me to spend more time with my family. Maybe God wanted me to appreciate what I had infront of me.
This past August my friend sent me a link and it was for the world race website. I clicked on the video and within the first few seconds an immenset heat shot thru my body and my heart began to race. It all became clear: This is what God wants me to do! This is why God kept me home, this is why he was demanding me to get closer to him. God knows the desires of my heart and he was not going to let me down. He knows my passion is to help others and he is sending me on such an amazing trip. It was in God's plan all along to send me out in his timing and not mine. I cannot wait for this adventure to begin come September.
