I’m as surprised as you. I knew 2017 would be beautiful and full of new adventures, but I never imagined I would fall in the love the way that I did.
I fell in love with a group of sweaty-headed, hug-loving, laughter-filled children.
Ones that ran through the door knowing I was on the other side ready to scoop them into arms. Ones that during class knew my shoulder was a place to rest their heads or my hand was ready to hold theirs. Ones that sometimes asked me to dance and sing as proudly as they could- even after they heard my voice. Ones that coated me in stickers that I still find on my clothes.
Ones that reminded me how much fun could be had with some paints, brushes, and a blank page…or how refreshing a blank page really is. Ones that showed me it’s okay to “love like you’re not scared”. Ones that made me question how so much energy could be stored in such tiny bodies.
I LOVE these children, and I had to give them up.
As my kiddos bounced away down the sidewalk, I felt an ache to see them leave. I want to spend every day in the art room creating pieces and making new memories with their overflowing imaginations.
I also want to know that there is hope for these kids who come from a place of hopelessness. As they walked, I asked J3sus how I could leave not knowing that they have a future.
His response: Trust me with these kids.
Yes, I love these kids, but they aren’t mine. I won’t be with them every second of their lives. In fact, I may never see them again, but I trust in a G0d who promises to never leave their sides and to give them a future.
Jeremiah 29:11- For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
The only love I can show them is handing them over to the only one in the entire world who could ever love them perfectly.
