“Physical Therapy”.
This was a word that was spoken over me at the beginning of the year. I literally had no idea what that meant. I asked the person who gave me that word and they said they couldn’t tell me what it was that I need to seek the Lord for my own understanding. So throughout the year, I felt like I had received little nuggets to make me believe, “oh that’s what the word was for!” I still wasn’t 100% sure. But here I am the last day of 2016 and I have FINALLY understood the full meaning of that word!!
This year has truly been an interesting journey to say the least! Upon entering 2016, I carried a lot of issues with me from 2015. I really struggled with doubts. I doubted trusting the Lord. I doubted that the Lord was really a good father. I doubted that the Lord had the best plan for me. I doubted myself that I was ever capable of doing something with my life. I’ve struggled, I’ve succeeded, I’ve failed, I’ve loved hard, I’ve been hurt, and I’ve had unspeakable joy.
As you all know in April I was accepted onto the Race. Leading up I truly had to fight through self-worth, and I had even given up on myself. My phrase became “I can’t do it” I had two ladies speak into my life. They spoke HARD TRUTH, but they also spoke so deeply into those spaces of doubt and of self-worth. And they spoke life. The Lord used them to pick up the pieces and help put them back together again.
Here I am at the end of 2016 and my fourth month on the race. If I were to tell you this was easy, that I never want to go home, that I have truly turned my life around-that would be a lie! This trip has been challenging and it has been stretching. I’ve gone through strength training. I’ve been given balancing exercises, and I’ve been pushed to strengthen my endurance. And again the Lord reminds me “PHYSICAL THERAPY!”
I find comfort and my fears have been settled here.The questions of wondering if the Lord really cares about my future and if the Lord is even good have been silenced with this simple word that I received in January of this year.
Here’s to 2017, I’m refusing to carry the baggage 2016 gave me. I’m choosing to walk into 2017 with an open heart and freedom to truly see what the Lord has to teach me. I’m washing myself clean of who I thought I am and I’m choosing to look at the Lord to find my identity. I’m letting go of my fears and doubt and choosing to find truth in knowing who the Lord truly is.
Will you join me?! Take sometime this evening to process through the GREAT, the TERRIBLE, the HARD, and the MOST AMAZING events that have happened in 2016 and choose to walk into 2017 with expectancy, hope, joy, and in freedom!
Leave me a comment on what you want to leave in 2016 and what you are you choosing to believe as you enter in to 2017??
