So first off Thursday July 21st I officially hit my first goal of $5,000. Thank you to each of you!! Everyone who gave but also everyone who stood with me in prayer, who encouraged me when I wasn’t sure if it would happen (I mean I am only human) and THANK YOU to all who truly believe in me far more then I believe in myself some days.
If you remember a couple posts ago, the Lord has been calling me into a life of transparency and it’s so easy for me to say “yea, I’m being transparent cause I’m sharing this” but then the Lord gives me a heart check like REALLY BECCA?! So then I have a minor brat moment and say OK GOD I HEAR YOU! So bear with me as I get better on this life of transparency. And it’s more than just on my blog, so give me Grace as I continue to navigate through these times of transition and growth.
But this question… Are you excited?!
I absolutely love this question and I absolutely hate it. hahaha! Because truth is YES I am excited! YES I AM EXCITED!! Yes, I am ready to embark on this incredible adventure! Yes I see this once in a life time thing happening right before my eyes. I feel joy, some days I feel peace, some days it seems so unreal. But truthfully as much excitement is there, there are also SO MANY MORE EMOTIONS! There is sadness, I feel scared sometimes, I feel overwhelmed some days, I feel unqualified; sometimes I wish I could quit and not go. (I can be honest right?!) So as often as I hear, ARE YOU EXCITED?! All these thoughts run through my head as I simply say “YEAH!” (Can I be real? yes okay…here goes)…Not because I’m lying to you when I answer because I actually am excited but I’m worried that if I share how I’m really feeling then you may not support me anymore or that you REALLY don’t want to hear what’s going on in my world. That question has become more of an in passing question like those “hey how are you” keep walking questions.
So I’m saying, PLEASE KEEP ASKING ME THAT QUESTION but if you decide you want to ask me...then be ready to actually listen and be prepared you might hear a NO! (and a few tears may follow it LOL).
Once I hit my deadline things got real. I realized (even though I had already bought my plane ticket) that I’m actually going to training camp, I’m going to meet my team, I’m going to get details about when I’m leaving… I’m actually moving forward in this process. THIS IS HAPPENING!
These last few days have been so mixed emotions for me. In 15 days I’m leaving for camp and after I return it’s like 40ish days (depending on the exact date we leave) until I’m off.
WAIT WHAT?!?! THAT’S IT! Everything I know, everything I’m used to friendships, family, church, I will be walking away from to adventure out into the unknown.
I feel nervous, not because of the unknown, but because I know the normal that I’m used to now will NEVER be this way again. In a year when I return life will continue to move for me and for those here at home.
While I am in this transition of THIS IS REAL and WAIT I’M NOT READY, give me Grace. I’m trying to fit everyone into my already crazy life, I want to see everyone, I want to hang onto everything and everyone so tightly but the Lord has been slowly loosening my grip. I can’t hang onto everything anymore. It’s time to start letting go and truly trusting in His master plan.
I’m scared, I’m nervous, I’m excited, I’m ready, I don’t want to go, I can’t wait to leave, I feel sad, I’m pumped….these are all just emotions that I feel all the time. No I’m not going crazy, I’m just in transition and I’m totally okay with that! I know this is just for a season while I’m getting prepared for the race.
While I’m in this season, give me Grace. If I seem out of it, if I seem quiet, if I seem too excited for life; it’s probably because I am all those things. But give me Grace while I process through and if you see me in those settings call me out, bring me back.
The biggest thing I am re-learning over this time is TRUTH OVER EMOTIONS. Holding onto the truths God has given me over this season in life, over this trip. Allowing truth to lead me over my emotions that I feel.
Thank you for following me on this journey. Thank you for believing in me. Thank you for trusting God with me on this adventure!
Continue to pray with me. Continue to pray for me.
Upcoming dates and events!!
July 30th (THIS SATURDAY)!! 8am-10am Flapjack fundraiser! Applebee’s on First Colonial Road.(561 first colonial road) Tickets are $10 and can be purchased in advanced through me or at the door that morning! Text or call if you want tickets (757-434-0557).
-I am working on a few other activities to have that morning as well! IF YOU HAVE A LOVE SHIRT WEAR IT and be ready to have your picture taken! 🙂
August 10-20th I will be in Gainesville, GA for training camp!
*Adopt-a-box is an ongoing fundraiser. I have boxes 1-100 covering a canvas photo. As boxes are claimed I will remove the boxes so that you can see the picture. Each box equals the dollar amount! (the 20,50, and 75) have been taken.
I will post a new picture soon with those boxes removed!!
(SIDE NOTE) if all of these boxes get taken I will be more and half way FULLY FUNDED!
My next deadline is $10,000 (so another $4,804) by September 16th.
And my last deadline is $16,651 (so another $6,651) by January. (yes I leave in October, yes I will be required to fund-raise while I’m overseas.) My honest hope is to be done by October!
