A year ago today I was sitting in Budapest,
Hungary wondering what on earth was going to be next. After the horrific night
we had just had, and being on an ATL, we knew it could only get better. I mean,
things couldn’t get much worse. It was then we came across a few angels-
American missionaries who saved us from the thought of simply living at
McDonalds and not only took us in, but considered us family.
I’ve been thinking a lot lately how often I
used to write on the race, how when something dramatic happened- or when some ‘a
ha’ moment happened I made notes everywhere so I could blog when I got a
chance. Well here I am, three months into re-entry and when I have those
moments I feel this emptiness of, ‘Where so I share this?’ Sure, I could start
a new blog, or I could just talk to people, but neither will happen, most
likely.
Instead I decided to look over some blogs from
a year ago, about this time and see what the Lord was doing. I was sucked in. I
began to not only read my own words, but to feel as if I was in that moment all
over again. Remembering the joys and the sorrows that I was facing, and how the
Lord was growing me during that time. After reading a handful of blogs I
decided to call it a night. Only here I am… Awake, and blogging. Somehow this
seems all too familiar.
So I figured I would update on a few things…
good. Not exactly what I had expected but still good. Then again, how much can
you really expect after a year away? I came home to a welcoming family, and a
couch I called my bed. I traveled to San Fran a few times visiting family and
had a fantastic time being pampered do I dare say J About six weeks ago I moved in with my
grandparents and that has been a total blessing. I am close to family, and yet
have a place I can call ‘mine’. After my year in a bag, it is much needed. I
celebrated my birthday in July, the holiday I left after celebrating and the
one I came home to. It was a close knit group of friends and good times-
simple, but that’s me. I am still job searching and I must admit I did not
think it would last this long. I have been blessed to babysit for an old family
I worked for in college, which is making it work, but not what I need. At times
I believe it is the Lord testing me still- teaching me to live with my needs
barely met and leaning on Him for the rest. Telling me ‘It’s not only around
the world you need to trust me daughter, but here at home too.’ Another thing I
didn’t see coming was a relationship, but I am pretty sure many others did.
About seven weeks after being home, things between my best guy friend and I
turned from simply friends to more. While it had been years in the making I
think I had a blind eye to it all. But as time has gone on, it has been
amazing. Sometimes God throws things your way when you least expect it and as
long as He stays your focus, it’s amazing how good it can be. I’ve learned the
hard way, so I’m walking on the right path this time around 😉 And of course, it was awesome being able to be a part of my best friend’s engagement, and now helping her plan her wedding.
And as for God, well that is a constant
learning game…
I don’t even know where to begin with how He
has amazed me, but I will try to share a few examples…
~Like the time I prayed for wind on a hot day
and sure enough, there it came.
~Or the time I thought if I can pray for wind,
I’m going big- God can you make it rain? I know it’s 115 outside and it would
never happen, but you can do anything, so please?? 30 minutes there were
thunderstorms and flash flood warnings on the news.
And of course, I am always seeing things new….
~Like how we are not called to admire Christ,
but to be like Him
~Or how truth is more important than unity. We
will always have division on some level, but without truth the end result is
worthless. You may have a happy room of people but none who are going to
heaven. Speak truth, no matter what. God will do the rest.
I can’t even think to list all of what I’ve
gone through, learned, seen, or heard. It’s been overwhelming at times. But I
can say this… While I am not sure where I am going next, or what roads the Lord
will open, I am trusting in His perfect will that in His perfect time all
things will come to pass.
I am God… Peace, be still’
