I have fallen in love in El Salvador, y’all.
It’s funny because I told a bunch of people at home that I was confident I would meet someone while I was in El Salvador. I don’t know why I felt that way, but I kept saying it! I did not think it was going to be who it is though. This guy is perfect, literally. He has done no wrong in his life. He is everything I could ever ask for and more. He is more than I would ever know to ask actually.
His name is Jesus.
Yes, that’s right I fell in love with Jesus. You would think after 19 years of knowing this guy that I would have fallen in love with Him. Nope. At least not like I am now. Okay, enough with the cheesiness but seriously! I fell in love with Jesus and I can’t explain how it happened. All my life I have been searching for “the one”. I am constantly looking for a man who could be my husband because I thought that if I found “the one” my life would be complete and I would be happier. Um, I was so WRONG.
While I was weeding the other day, I was thinking about my life after the race. Especially who my husband would be, if I have already met him, what he would be like, and what our life would look like together. Then God asked me “When will I be enough for you?” Let’s just say that I got called out and I felt so condemned. It was loving, but I definitely got called out in that moment. I began to think about His question. I knew this was the first weed I was pulling up in my heart. How in the world is God not enough for me? He is the God of the universe, creator of all things beautiful, and my true source of strength & comfort. He, himself, is love. Aside from all that greatness, He is waiting for me. Someone is waiting for me, wants me, pursuing me and calling me to come. He calls me by my real name, “beautiful”.
Jesus has been pursuing my heart since the day I was born and it took this long for me to see His pursuit and say “YES”. Now, I want to scream from the mountain tops. I want everyone to know. Buddy the Elf said it best, “I’m in love and I don’t care who knows it”. I am in love with Jesus. Head over heels, in love. I know many of you think this sounds crazy, but when you fall in love with Jesus you will understand. I am finally satisfied with Him. It just took my realization that He is all I need. There is a saying that says something about dancing with Jesus and He will let the perfect guy step in when it’s right. That is my new life: When the time is right, the perfect guy, “the one”, the person I was set apart for, will step in and dance with me next. Until that time, I will continue to dance with Jesus and allow Him to love me and lead me to where I need to go.
How lucky am I that I’m in love with Jesus? You know what? So are you. No matter how old you are, what type of relationship you’re in, or how messed up you think you are. Jesus wants you. He is pursuing you. He is waiting for you to acknowledge Him and say “yes” to His perfect love. I encourage you to truly and deeply fall in love with Jesus because it’s been the best few days of my life.
I finally got the first video to upload, so here is E Squad’s first travel day!
Much love,
Bailey
