I have been meaning to blog for weeks now, but just have not figured out exactly how to express all that I’ve been learning. I could stare at my screen for hours and attempt to squeeze everything into a couple paragraphs. But I decided to focus on one of the things that has really stuck with me these past couple of weeks in Romania.
Our squad leader, Chelsea, talked about growing in our communication with God. She pointed out how David expressed all emotions to the Lord and challenged us to learn to do the same.
We were to read Psalm, 16,17, 51 and 139 and then attempt to write a Psalm of our own. As I was reading, I gained a new appreciation for David’s ability to express his feelings so fluently and unfeigned. After an hour or so of really listening to the Lord and reflecting on my emotions, I was able to compile my own Psalm. During this time, I really felt close to the Lord and loved finding words for how I feel.
I thought I would go ahead and be real with you by sharing my Psalm that I came up with. Even though this is not in my comfort zone to share so openly, God is teaching me on this race that He is going to be constantly expanding my walls in order to challenge me and others. But before I share, I want to challenge you to go out of your comfort zone and really dig deep into your heart. I challenge you to express your feelings to God in a way you never have, in a way that makes you come alive like never before. Whether that be a dance, a painting, a Psalm, etc. God longs to hear your heart’s cry. Prayer is a wonderful way to communicate, but why not take communication with our Savior to a new level, to a new intimacy? Let us find our inner David and not hold back any longer.
My Psalm
Lord I am struck by your beauty,
it is in you that I find my worth.
Without You I am nothing,
without you I am stripped of life.
God fill me with your rich, gold streams of love.
Daily I dip my feet in Your Presence,
longing to be drenched in Your Glory.
Swaying with peace in Your Pasture,
extending my weak arms for Your Strength.
Finding grace in every way through You.
Never ceasing to dance with joy for You.
Piercing troubles are thrown my way,
but You are my Shield and my Protector.
As long as my eyes are on You,
You instruct me on what to do.
Jesus take over my being,
I desire to be fully Yours,
wanting nothing to do with my filthy flesh.
My heart craves the music only You can provide,
notes that can be made by none other than my King.
They set a fire deep down in my soul,
satisfied by nothing but more of You God!
May I never remove my gaze from your face,
but even when I lose sight of You,
You continue to heal me with Your Majestic Presence.
God pour yourself over me,
so that I may be dripping sweet incense of my Savior!
Lord, for no other reason than love, you fought for me.
It’s now my turn to never relent, for I want ALL of You.
There is NOTHING I want more!
