Have no fear friends, I’m not expecting anything that has a heartbeat.
I just have expectations about training camp that is in…ONE WEEK from today.
Let the panic set in.
Moment of truth: Forget facebook, twitter, pinterest…all I do in my spare time is read blogs.
I love it. I might even be addicted. Its great.
But it’s the weirdest thing…I keep reading all these blogs about Training Camp and there seems to be a reoccurring theme: don't have expectations.
Umm…
Ehhh…
Second moment of truth: I have expectations.
I expect to eat fish head soup. And hike with my ridiculously heavy backpack. And to sleep on a bus one night. And have crazy squad wars. And lots of worship. And maybe not shower. And have tent sleepovers with some awesome girls on my squad.
I also expect it to be hard. And tiring. And frustrating. And to wonder what on earth I have I gotten into.
But I want it to be hard because if it was going to be easy there would be no need for God.
Fact: I’m a professional none-processor. I made that term up but what I'm saying is I am really good at not letting my mind process what lies ahead of me. My dear soulmate Kelsey spoke some truth to me the other day after we were discussing my pro-none-processing skills. (I think I’m so good at it because when I do take the time to process what is coming my mind races and I tend to get anxious and I make up irrational ‘what if’ scenerios. Kelsey unfortunately knows this about me) But she went on to tell me that if I wasn’t nervous, I wouldn’t need God and I wouldn’t be open to being broken and stretched.
YIKES.
Ehhhh…..being broken?
(in the Fat Amy voice) Mhhhh….betta not.
But I know it’s time. It’s time to be stretched. To fully need God like never before. To grow into who God created me to be. Yeah. It really is time.
But good heavens, I’m scared. I literally cannot do this. Only through the power and grace and stregnth of Jesus will I beging to be able to this.
Training Camp is just the beginning of this journey.
I’m excited to catch a glimpse of Jesus’ grace and love and truth that He wants to share with me next week.
Oh and to meet my new squadmates and find out my team. Yeah, you could say I'm a little bit excited about Training camp.
In Grace,
ALH
