So, Here I am…
Pretty Embarrassed
I feel EXTREAMLY foolish
and I feel so overwhelmed
This is what Happened…
About 2 months ago I was feel quite stressed out about The World Race…so I do what ever good christian does…I prayed…for like 3 days… (don’t act like you’ve never done something like this before)
I thought I got the conformation that i was waiting for and made a hasty choice I called the lovely staff at The world race and told them that I would like to push my race back. Not to the race I was called to be on…But the race I wanted it be on.
I wanted more time. I didn’t know what to do. I I I I…all about Me, Myself, & I. At this point, yes right now I could SLAP myself with how much I didn’t think of why I was doing when I did it.
Good Lord was that dumb. It wasn’t until I was sitting having a group chat with my January family when I realized that I was just a stranger looking in on a conversation. One that I was not meant to be apart of. in that moment I lost the connection with the group chat. (That has NEVER happened) So… I went to my Bible and devo and REALLY looked hard… the feeling of WHAT HAVE I DONE, is NOT a fun feeling. I sat almost in tears thinking of all the time Outhat I wasted think I had so much time to do something. ( and YES, 23 years of being a professional procrastinator doesn’t help)
My Devo was Luke 18:1
“Always Pray & Not lose heart!”
Our Prayer life goes wrong we are not resistant in our request.
Giving up is admitting failure & defeat. Defeat-Discoragement & doubt in the power of prayer.
*Pray until what you pray for has been accomplished or until you have complete assurance in your hear that it will be!*
Prayer is not only calling on God… Its battling with Satan.
Wait at God’s promise until he meets you there, for He always returns by the path of his promises.
The answer is in your Heart!
Shoot I couldn’t believe it. I was wrong…So wrong I needed to leave in september. I knew it..but I couldn’t admit that I was wrong.
I then called a my brother/ boo thing Kyle. I talked to him Told him what was going on. he listened like good brothers do and then said…lets pray. we began to pray and it became more and more pressed upon my heart that I needed to go in september. The next afternoon I got a phone call from my sister Kalie! We talked and prayed and it became more clear. but, I knew what needed to be done. The best part of speaking to them, was that they both said the same thing. The said “I think you know the answer” and I did.
I have been called to serve in Asia at this time in my life, and although I feel a great calling for the people of the UK and Europe. Asia is where I need to be. I want so much to Please The Lord, but like everyone else I’m human and I tend to put me needs over what has been placed right in my lap.
It was so clear that I need to leave in september, But I wanted more time. I didn’t have the faith in myself that I could get funded and go. I have all the faith in the world that God provides, Ive seen him do it for 23 years. But not always do I have the faith in myself.
Like it says in 1 Thessalonians 5:17-18
NEVER STOP PRAYING! and give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Jesus
Me: “Why would people want to help me? I can’t do this I don’t know any one who would be willing to help me. Cant i just wait? I don’t know where Im going to get 16,000 dollars from. Who has that Kind of money?! I need to get a Pack. How much is that gonna cost? what do I do with my cell phone? Do i sell my car now?! OH CRAP!!! I NEED TO UPDAT MY PASSPORT!!!! AHHHHHHHHH.”
So, you see I know that God has provided. oh that is NOT a question… but I question me.
So….now that I have come to back to my september team…Theres much work to be done.
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Namaskar
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