“Ryan…I’m a Crazy Person!”
“You’re not Crazy…”
“Dude…yes I am…I’m insane!”
This is the conversation that happened about 20 times on the day I decided to leave Nashville and move to Gainesville, GA. I was scared. Scared of what people would think. In my heart I knew the Lord was totally in the move, but in my head I was nervous. What would people think? I mean, I told everyone that I was going to go to Nashville and pursue my dreams, now 3 weeks later I’m giving up? Would they think that I had given up because I’m a sissy and can’t handle when life gets hard? Would they think I’m a quitter? I must be a quitter right? It totally looks like I’m a quitter! I quit everything!!
These are the thoughts I had.
On top of that I was just doubting that I had even heard from the Lord. I mean, why would he invite me to Nashville, and then change His mind and say Georgia? It doesn’t make sense! I don’t get it! I still don’t!
So I processed it every 5 minutes by telling everyone around me that I was a Crazy Person. Unfortunately for Ryan…it was just Ryan. See, he was on his way to Gainesville too for the same program that I had just applied and got accepted to within the last 24 hours…CGA, or the Center for Global Action. This is where the Lord was calling me. I knew it in the center of my bones. I could feel it. I even wanted to go! But I felt crazy because normal people don’t apply to a program that starts 2 days later, get accepted miraculously the next day, pack up everything you have in a truck that same day, and drive 5 hours to your new home the next! Crazy.
But Jesus likes crazy. I’m learning to love it too. My Mom just hopes I know what the heck I’m doing, and still loves me anyways! Rofl.
Here’s how I know He likes crazy…
Because the first day of CGA the Director of the program stands up to talk to us, and begins to describe his prayer time that morning, and how he had asked the Lord specifically what this group of CGA apprentices would be like…the group that I was a part of. This is the first thing he said:
“These are the Crazy Ones.”
Immediately, peace flooded my heart. I looked over at Ryan and he is laughing at me. For the past 24 hours all I could say was that I was a Crazy Person, and that’s exactly right! I am crazy! Cause I have tasted a deep life in Him, and I will risk just about anything to have that hunger filled. Sometimes people do crazy stuff like sell everything to buy a field. (Matt 13:44) The Kingdom is worth it like that. With those 5 simple words, the stress and anxiety of what people would think, or if I had made a bad decision, or if I was a real idiot, faded away with the deep seated acknowledgment from Jesus that I was right where He needed me to be. Right here in Gainesville, GA.
So why tell you this? Because I wanted you to know the story. To know how God was working in my life. To know that I am absolutely crazy, but that God made me that way and rigged this whole enterprise called faith to work that way. (Reference the story of Jericho. Amen.)
I want you to know because I want you to be a part of it.
CGA is an apprenticeship program bent on activating a generation in their Kingdom Role. It is run by Adventures in Missions, which is the same organization that runs the World Race, which I participated in last year. During my 4 month stay here at CGA, I will be equipped professionally and spiritually in order to better discover and fulfill my unique calling in the Kingdom of God. Furthermore, I will working in the Adventures in Missions office, supporting the calling and sending of missionaries to advance the Gospel.
I am asking for your support both prayerfully and financially. CGA costs $3,950 over the course of 4 months, which covers food, rent, and ministry opportunities. In order to continue in the program, I need to have $1,950 in my account by October 1st! Whoa!
If you feel led to donate, just go ahead and click the “Support Me for CGA” tab on the left side of your screen, and follow the simple instruction from there. Your continued support of me in this crazy journey I call my life means so much to me, and will no doubt be used to further the Kingdom of God. May you be blessed in your giving, and I thank you in advance for your prayers!
I hope you enjoyed the story of this crazy journey. I’m still processing a lot of it, but I know that the Lord has me here, and I’m committed.
