Yes, I stole the title of a Relient K song for my blog, but it just seemed to fit my blog so well. I hope I don’t get arrested. 😛
I’m going to be honest, yesterday at this time I was one hundred percent certain that I was going to go home from this race…really certain…looking for airplane tickets from Tel Aviv to Columbus, Ohio. I was just so tired and homesick I was ready to give up. After spending the majority of the day crying I was laying on one of the little foam mattress things that we use as our beds here. I knew that going home was the wrong decision, but I didn’t care. I felt like God was speaking to me while I lay there:
“Ok so it’s too difficult for you to finish out the last eight months of this race and too difficult for you to miss three major holidays with your family, but can you do one small thing?”
“What small thing God?”
“Stop crying.”
“Well, yes I suppose I could do that, it isn’t very hard.”
“Could you do another small thing, like sit up?”
“Yes that’s pretty easy.”
“Can you stand up?”
“Yes”
“Can you pick up all the tissues that are around you and throw them away?”
“Yeah I guess so.”
“Now can you worship me for even five minutes, just sing some worship songs?”
“Yes”
So I feel like God is really trying to teach me to just take one small step at a time. When I looked at the big picture I got overwhelmed and couldn’t handle it. But when I live one moment at a time and tackle one thing at a time it really isn’t as difficult as it seems.
Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
-Matthew 6:34
