It has been a rough week for me so far this week…ok I’ll put it bluntly…it’s been one of the most horrible weeks of my life. I didn’t realize it was possible for the human body to hold that much sorrow in it without perishing(I mean seriously, I don’t know if any of you have ever cried so hard that it made you have convulsions and throw up…gross I know…I experienced that for the first time in my life this week).
But I’m not writing this blog to complain or make people feel sorry for me, I’m writing it to tell you all that God’s grace is greater than even this amount of pain. No sorrow or neediness is too big for Him to handle and no wound is too deep for Him to heal.
But I’m not writing this blog to complain or make people feel sorry for me, I’m writing it to tell you all that God’s grace is greater than even this amount of pain. No sorrow or neediness is too big for Him to handle and no wound is too deep for Him to heal.
I made the mistake of running to every single person I could think of other than God to find comfort and luckily…found none. He had to break me of the dangerous habit of running to people for help. *Stop trusting in man, who has but a breath in his nostrils. Of what account is he? – Isaiah 2:22
So I found myself completely without help in the world apart from God and in my desperation turned to Him for deliverance(I have a feeling we will all experience this many times this year). And of course He came, “Why didn’t you come to me first?” He spoke to my heart with tears in HIs eyes…”I have been longing to hold you and comfort you.” I could only answer…I don’t know.
*The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit. -Psalm34:18
He knew exactly what I needed. He didn’t try to say there was no pain or explain it away. He drew me outside in the quiet darkness where I found myself surrounded with an amazing amount of fireflies. I completely forgot about myself as I slowly walked around in wonder. The beauty of it all seemed to begin a flow of healing and all the while I walked He was right beside me whispering…”I’m right here, I’m not going anywhere, I’m right here, this too shall pass, it is not too big for me, it did not take me by surprise, I knew of this night when I wove you together twenty-one years ago, I love you, I always will…”
*For I am the LORD, your God who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear; I will help you. Isaiah 41:13
So for any of you who are suffering or struggling with any struggle great or small I encourage you to take it to God first and don’t save Him as a last resort.
So for any of you who are suffering or struggling with any struggle great or small I encourage you to take it to God first and don’t save Him as a last resort.
And I just want to encourage you my dear brave fellow soldiers in Christ who are suffering and being tested with the words God used to encourage me…He is right there beside you, where ever you are, watching you and loving you, He is not going anywhere no matter what, even if the things you are going through seem like the end of the world they are not, they will pass, they are not too big for God and they did not take Him by surprise. GOD LOVES YOU!! HE ALWAYS WILL!!! NO MATTER WHAT!!! YOU ARE HIS TREASURED POSSESSION!!! HIS BELOVED!!!! NO WEAPON FORGED AGAINST YOU WILL PREVAIL!!!
*When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze. -Isaiah 43:2
