ThReE wEeKs In
It is through God’s grace and goodness that I am team leader in the first place. It is through Him that I am able to love my team more than I ever thought was possible.
WeEk OnE:
Week One was all about me getting my eyes off of others and on Him. I looked around to the other four leaders around me trying to figure out how I could lead like them. I looked at Kayla and compared her grace to my bluntness. Finally, I listened to God when He spoke to me. He did not put me in leadership to lead like Kayla, He could have left her as leader in that case. Nor did He ask me to lead like those around me. As cheesy as it may sound, He called me to be me because I am a leader. Of course I have things to learn but He did ask me to have everything together, He asked me to step out front.
It was in week one as well that I realized that juvi Aubrie and world race Aubrie are the same Aubrie. God has divine purpose for everything that I have learned and everywhere I have been. How I approach things may be a little rough at times but that is how He has trained me before hand.
WeEk TwO:
You could call week two break down week. My new found confidence that I found in the Lord I turn into confidence in myself. If you don’t know what is wrong with that statement I’ll tell you, confidence in self leads to failure. I tried taking on all of the ministry opportunities and all the issues of the team by myself. Why would I do this? I have no idea. When I broke down I realized all that I had taken on myself. I had to repent for trying to take over and apologize to my team for giving of myself and not giving them God. Who was I to take over for God? I am pretty sure He can do it all by Himself, i’m just a messenger.
WeEk ThReE:
Week of learning how to walk. Our contact reminded us of the scripture that teaches us to take get in order our household first, take care of yourself before others. My team is my first ministry but not my first priority. I am learning that I need to take care of myself in order to be able to serve my team.
With that this week I recognize that I can’t solve issues that might come up. Only God knows the hearts of my teammates, I do not. My job is to seek the Lord and to stand on their behalf for what is going on. I can not change how people think, what they do, or make them do anything. God is teaching me that when I see what is going on, I give it back to Him, that’s my job.
Just a little insight of what my life has been like these past few weeks. We only have one week left of ministry here, then five days of debrief, and then off to a closed country for the month of March. Love you all! Thank you for the prayers and support, I need them!
