It's never intentional.
Actually, I do my best to avoid it.
But I know it's prone to happen at some point.
Those times that I befriend strangers. When I let people into my life. Opening up my heart. Yet I know that good-bye is just around the corner. And it hurts all the same.
The thing is, I don't regret one single moment of it. Not the part that granted me a chance to get to know awesome people. Not the part that grew my patience and love for others. Not the part where new friendships where established.
BUT, I absolutely hate the Good-byes.
I don't think it's possible to live your life without having to say good-bye at least once or twice. Whether it's through moving, changing careers, or even through death. We all have and all will face it at some point. The thing is, it never gets any easier.
I've had to think a lot about this whole good-bye thing with my leaving the country approaching way too quickly. (8 DAYS!!!) There are too many good-byes to even want to think about. Co-workers, friends, church, pets, family, and neighbors.
I've learned to view it like this…
Every good-bye I say is like a piece of my heart torn from me. That doesn't sound or feel good, but it stays where I want it, and therefore those moments, people, and memories will never be forgotten. All those people I've met in my previous travels to Africa, across America, school, or even through work. Each owns a piece of my heart.
Even with these coming 11 months, good-bye will be inevitable. Every month we will be changing countries. With that comes leaving people that I've begun to build relationships with. After this trip I know my heart will be scattered around the world. It scares me, but I know it's necessary. In order to reach out to others we have to give our hearts away. We cannot keep them safe and expect a change. It won't be easy, but I know that God is 190% in it and for it. He will help me through every tear stained and gut wrenching good-bye.
Despite all the heartbreak that goes along with departing soon, I am beyond excited. I know that God is going to do some amazing things in the months to come. I hope you will consider joining me in prayer as we look forward to the next 11 months. There are ministry opportunities just waiting to be discovered, but it all starts with focus and prayer.
To all my family and friends…this is not an official good-bye but a see you later. I will see you all sooner than you know!
"The Lord bless you and keep you; the Lord make his face to shine upon you and be gracious to you; the Lord lift up his countenance upon you and give you peace." – Numbers 6:24-26
*Small Update*
Financially I am set to launch on July 4th!!! Everyone has been more than generous when it comes to donations and my account is currently sitting at $6,980!!! Thank you to all who have sacrificed to make this possible. My next financial deadline is in October and my account needs to be at $11,000. It's not to early to start making your donations. Seriously consider helping me on this mission. I can't do it without you!
