When all else fails…what next?
When it comes to fundraising, there is a ton of failing involved. There really is no "fun" in "fundraising," if that makes sense. And anyone who claims that fundraising is an easy task is just a liar. Especially when it comes to raising $15,500!
It's not like he hasn't proved himself faithful time after time. I think it's just so hard to hand off the controls to him. I like to believe that it's all in my hands. That I can somehow "do" something that will magically make all the money I need fall in my lap. But obviously it's not up to me. So that voice comes back…
This analogy was used at church this past week. It was in relation to money/giving. But I think it relates to giving up control too. Take your hands and clench them into fists. No, actually do it, don't just read this. Clench them so hard that your arms are shaking. Now hold that for a good ten seconds. Okay. Now let go. Feels better right? You might have red palms with finger nail marks dug into them. That's the pain of trying to do it all on our own. Of trying to take control. When we just let go, a relief washes over us and God is able to shine.
Easier said than done. Pray for me as I intentionally surrender this whole fundraising/finances thing to God. He is a much better steward than I am, and I really need to give it all up to him.
"I will give thanks to the LORD with my whole heart; I will recount all of your wonderful deeds. I will be glad and exult in you; I will sing praise to your name O Most High." – Psalm 9:1-2
