There have been many questions on my mind lately. The time has come for the end of my trip and the beginning of whatever God has next for me. Amazing how that time always seems to be upon me. So today I really began asking God all these questions. And in pursuit of these things, God have me three visions.
#1 The first things I saw was a statue of George Washington. Then it transitioned right into seeing money. And that was it.
#2 I was in a park area (although I couldn’t see myself, I was looking from my own perspective). There was a paved walkway that I was standing on. All I could see was a long row of trees to my left that were a beautiful shade of yellow (it was obviously fall time). There were no people around except a lady with shoulder length dark hair walking, then quickening her pace toward me. She seemed so excited to see me, like we hadn’t seen each other in a while. When she got right to me, she was suddenly embracing a young child. I couldn’t tell if the child was a boy or a girl, or the age for that matter, it was just a child. Then the same thing happened again, I saw her coming towards me, and this time when she got to me, she was embracing a woman the same age as her. They were so happy to see each other.
#3 The third one was the most interesting for me. The few times I have had visions, and the several times I have had dreams that dealt with myself, it is usually from my perspective. Meaning I am seeing everything that is going on as if it were really happening to me. But this time, the first thing I saw was myself. I was standing at a brick bridge talking and laughing with some people. I couldn’t see the people, but there were three of them. It was obviously autumn, because there were trees everywhere and they were all the same beautiful, bright yellow as the second vision. And in a matter of seconds, it was all gone.
As I began wondering what these meant, I went to the book of Matthew, where I have been searching through for several days now. Chapters 5 and 6 have been the only things I could read for over a week. For whatever reason, I stopped at chapter 10 as I was flipping to it. Verse 26 it home:
“So have no fear (of them), for nothing is covered that will not be revealed, or hidden that will not be known.”
Let’s talk for a second about the direction of my life. Now, I will be honest in telling you that I don’t know what I want to do with my life…or better yet, what God wants to do with my life. I have a hundred things I would love to do. I do, however, have an idea of what the next step in my life is (which will be revealed when I figure all this out). But as with anything, there are a thousand details that have to come into place.
I have questioned recently where my faith and trust stand. Do I trust the Lord? Of course! He has always provided, always done everything that has been needed-and more in so many cases. Do I have faith that God is bigger than all things and anything is possible through him? Yes. So where do I draw the line of asking him to provide for this next step in life? Do I ask him every day, which ends up meaning that I ask the same thing? Sometimes I think God is yelling to me to stop asking him the same thing all the time. He already knows! I just asked yesterday, do I think he forgot? But how do I maintain being proactive, or am I just to wait? Let me repeat, I know in God’s time he will do what he is going to do and it will all come together the way He planned it to be. Let’s face it, God doesn’t need me to ask him anything really. But I know he wants me to. So, in hearing that “nothing is covered that will not be revealed” I begin to embrace the Lord’s words. There lies his promise to me. Do I have the answer to my above questions? Well, no. But I have his reminder of his promise. And that is good enough for me.
After reading that verse (and the few that followed) I went back to chapter 6 and started where I left off…verses 25-34. I am sure many of you are familiar with this passage, “Do not be anxious.” What a great reminder for me. Not that I am worried about what comes next. I just have some general wonderings. But verse 25 says, “Do not be anxious about your life.” Plain and simple. But verse 33 hit the target,
“But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness and all these things will be added to you.”
Now I can tell you that I have been asking the Lord lots of stuff lately. I have been praying for people and telling him all sorts of things. And I have been in this weird funk because the race is coming to an end. But I have not been seeking Him FIRST. Just telling him things over and over. I still have yet to figure out what his righteousness and me being righteous is. But now I know what needs to be done. Those visions now have a beginning meaning for me. And I don’t think God is done with them yet either. Awesome how God will tell me what things he wants me to know when I let him.
