The Lord in all his goodness has great things planned.
I last wrote about baggage, and how the Lord was riding me of my
baggage and was preparing me for all the things that were to come this
week at camp-and He has blown me out of the water! Camp has been an
incredible mix of spiritual foundation and getting to know each person
as well as investing and building team unity for Christ. In the first
two days you had already gotten life stories and knew spiritual depth
about many of the 54 of us leaving in January.
baggage and was preparing me for all the things that were to come this
week at camp-and He has blown me out of the water! Camp has been an
incredible mix of spiritual foundation and getting to know each person
as well as investing and building team unity for Christ. In the first
two days you had already gotten life stories and knew spiritual depth
about many of the 54 of us leaving in January.
Throughout the first few days, I was able to process, acknowledge, and
grieve many things in my life that I didn’t even know were there or
that I needed to deal with. I was able to pray, forgive, and move past
things in my life that have held me down for so many years. The Lord
tore down all my thoughts about RELIGION and began a new work in me
that was all about the creator and the Lover of my soul-not based on
one religion or another, but truly who he is and what he has for me.
And the ultimate happened when we were camping on Tuesday.
For the past year I have been stuck in this place, not being able
to advance, there was a wall place between me and the Lord. I have
searched and searched and come up short each time not being able to put
my figure on how to break down that wall. We made our way to a park
with a trail in it on Tuesday afternoon. The activity was dealing with
surrender, and the second I stepped out of the van, I knew that it was
the day. That day was the day that the final wall would come tumbling
down and I was going to stand in the light and glory of the Lord-and I
started to get really excited. I wasn’t even sure what it was that the
Lord was going to have me surrender, I just knew that it was going to
be wonderful. We all got a log to write what we were going to
surrender. I prayer for about 10 minutes and the Lord reveled to me
that I needed to surrender my independence. I wrote it all out on my
log and then waited for someone to pray with me and set me off on the
trail for the journey to the cross to give it all up to Him. A staff
member came to me and I shared with her what I was surrendering. She
shared with me that she had been going through the same thing recently
and gave me some insight. Then she prayed with me and sent me to the
beginning of the trail where I met with our team leaders-Ms. Patti and
Papa Michael-for the year. As I walked up to them, I began trembling.
They prayed with me and sent me on my way with tears already in my
eyes. I began to get really excited and the Lord showed me that today,
that day, Tuesday, October 21, 2008 was going to be the day I was
FREE!! I picked my pace up and began crying tears of joy! There were
staff members along the way through the path and I finally stopped and
asked one of them to rejoice with me because that was the day the Lord
had freed me and I couldn’t contain myself any longer! I needed to
share it with someone and I needed to rejoice and give Glory to His
name! I found myself crying off and on throughout the journey . The
closer I got to the cross, the harder it became. The path was long and
uphill, there were trees, vines, and all sorts of obstacles in the way
to the cross, but there were also encouraging voices and prayer along
the way. The entire second half of the trip, all I could sing in my
head was “I am free,” a part of a song by David Crowder. And when I got
to the cross, I dropped to my knees, surrendered and was overflowing
with JOY! Praise the Lord! It is finished and I am free. It will be a
tough road, but well worth it friends, well worth it!!
to advance, there was a wall place between me and the Lord. I have
searched and searched and come up short each time not being able to put
my figure on how to break down that wall. We made our way to a park
with a trail in it on Tuesday afternoon. The activity was dealing with
surrender, and the second I stepped out of the van, I knew that it was
the day. That day was the day that the final wall would come tumbling
down and I was going to stand in the light and glory of the Lord-and I
started to get really excited. I wasn’t even sure what it was that the
Lord was going to have me surrender, I just knew that it was going to
be wonderful. We all got a log to write what we were going to
surrender. I prayer for about 10 minutes and the Lord reveled to me
that I needed to surrender my independence. I wrote it all out on my
log and then waited for someone to pray with me and set me off on the
trail for the journey to the cross to give it all up to Him. A staff
member came to me and I shared with her what I was surrendering. She
shared with me that she had been going through the same thing recently
and gave me some insight. Then she prayed with me and sent me to the
beginning of the trail where I met with our team leaders-Ms. Patti and
Papa Michael-for the year. As I walked up to them, I began trembling.
They prayed with me and sent me on my way with tears already in my
eyes. I began to get really excited and the Lord showed me that today,
that day, Tuesday, October 21, 2008 was going to be the day I was
FREE!! I picked my pace up and began crying tears of joy! There were
staff members along the way through the path and I finally stopped and
asked one of them to rejoice with me because that was the day the Lord
had freed me and I couldn’t contain myself any longer! I needed to
share it with someone and I needed to rejoice and give Glory to His
name! I found myself crying off and on throughout the journey . The
closer I got to the cross, the harder it became. The path was long and
uphill, there were trees, vines, and all sorts of obstacles in the way
to the cross, but there were also encouraging voices and prayer along
the way. The entire second half of the trip, all I could sing in my
head was “I am free,” a part of a song by David Crowder. And when I got
to the cross, I dropped to my knees, surrendered and was overflowing
with JOY! Praise the Lord! It is finished and I am free. It will be a
tough road, but well worth it friends, well worth it!!
It is the by the spirit I walk and by the spirit lives will be changed and His ministry will flourish!
